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karma Audio pronunciation of "karma" ( P ) Pronunciation Key (krm)
n.

1. Hinduism & Buddhism. The total effect of a person's actions and conduct during the successive phases of the person's existence, regarded as determining the person's destiny.
2. Fate; destiny.
3. Informal. A distinctive aura, atmosphere, or feeling: There's bad karma around the house today.

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to have a day be so good.. to then turn into being great and just shy of amazing... to then turn into something so horrible and and unbelieveable in a matter of seconds; is remarkable.
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good - knowing it was my first friday off in over a year. seeing andy before he has school. sleeping a few hours. getting my checked cashed at luna. lunch.

great - another nap. andy put my last 4 neons on the car while i was sleeping (they look amazing by the way). talking to dave on the phone.

shy of amazing - pluto gang & less than jake concert. they played all my favorite songs - except for Johnny Quest but ill get over it. seeing doug.

horrible and shocking - walking back to the car, and noticing there are a few extra cop cars around the area of my car. getting closer and realizing they were at my car. seeing broken glass, and a brick through my window. (something i thought i would never say in the presents of cops: holy fucking hell... i just got fucking robbed. what. the. fuck!? FUCK!). having my new sterio, pretty much over $5,000 worth of cds, andys (priceless) punk leather jacket, his new camera, his backpack containing all the prints he did this year, sketchbooks, ipod, flash drive, checkbook, id, light meter, school books... possibly more - GONE!
my window completly gone, the little corner window also smashed (that to me is an extra kick in the balls.. if your already in the damn car, why smash the most expensive glass piece there is on a car. i would have been better off with them smashing the windsheild becuase that would be cheaper to fix. bastards).
im left with everything rummaged though.. broken glass everywhere, and a brick.
and the biggest kick in the pants - i was seriously right around the corner when it happened talking to doug. the cops said litteraly 5 minutes before i got there it happened.. if we had just left - it wouldnt have happened.
total butterfly effect in motion.
but then i think... if we just cut it short, we would have walked onto them doing it.. and that could have been really bad...
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so in the getting back to karma -
where did i go wrong...? i dont get it. if you know me, you know that i try to be the best person i can be with anything i can be... so where did i go wrong?

and i really really dont have any money what-so-ever to be spending on fixing glass in my car.. and the little metal piece in the middle thats bent to shit.
all i can hope for.. is that i have glass insurance.. and really hope that i will get compensated for at least some of the things that are gone.
i can deal with my shit being gone. ive had cds taken before.. no big deal. a pain in the ass - yes. but its nothing i cant deal with.
its having andy's life... stollen from him. eveything he lives for... everything he has worked so hard on.. just gone.
if i do get any money back for the shit thats gone in the best senario possible.. ide buy andys stuff, and im going on vaca to cali for spring break. - one can wish right..? doubtful, but we'll see tomorrow when i call the insurence company.


man... what a day..