tday was a do-nothing day. absolutely wonderful. havent had a day like this in MONTHS. too bad it's almost over. Going to read some more.
I was thinking ( i know, I know)
life would be a lot less interesting if it weren't for people trying to kill me very day. It's true they do.
I think tht I am incapable of truly loving anybody ever again. I've met some really cool people that I should have, but didn't. It's silly I know. I jsut don't think I have it in me anymore. Sad, seeing as it's really all I want.
today... I was watching an airliner, high in the sky, leaving the most beautiful contrail behind it. I always stare at airplanes. I wonder who the people inside are. Where they're going. what their lives are like. Are they happy? I'm always happy when I'm on a plane; it means i'm going somewhere wonderful.
sometimes i want to buy another gun, jsut because it's like the ultimate insurance, you know? if things wre ever jsut sooo soo terrible, you could always take the easy way out. It's sometimes comforting to knonw that if it ever got so bad, you could jsut end it so easily. NOT that I'd ever do it, mind you. Because I would never.
I know there is something out there that we have no idea about. Infinitely more powerful than we are. I've seen too many strange, unexplainable things in my life. I know it's there, i just wonder if it will ever reveal itself to us. because we suck. we truly do.
well bye.