romeoreject

Darkness, surronding, encompasing, engulfing. I, myself, me, one being. Deep in the dark recesses of depression I dwell. Many times have I tried to escape into a life that would somewhat resemble one of hapiness, but everytime I gain some kind of footing it always gives way to reality. With every failed attempt the pit grows deeper, swallowing me. Am I really myself any more?

Yeah, Yeah depression isn't very attractive, I know, but thats what I'm feeling right now.

Worked out.....for 3 hours.....straight.....then worked for 8......ugh my body is going to hate me tomarrow, but its a necessary evil I guess. Oh well I'll deal with it. Plus I get to go back and do it twice more before the week is over. Thats what I get for not visiting the place in almost a year. My reoccuring nightmare came back again. I don't think I posted it before, but I've had this dream since I was a freshman in high school. It goes like this I was stranded on a planet that had black ground and the sky was purple. I was cold and confused so I started walking around looking for people and eventually I found an open field where there were millions of people. I ran up to some of them trying to talk, but my voice was gone, I tried to touch them, but they didn't move, didn't even acknowledge I was there, like I was invisable. Then they all started glowing and then they all took off like rockets up into the sky and as I looked up I saw that they were heading for Earth. Suddenly my legs gave out, I dropped to my knees. Blood starts pouring out of my eyes, mouth, ears and nose. I got a tearing pain throughout my body, I heard snapping and cracking. I realized that my bones were breaking. I can still feel it. I scream and scream this blood curdling scream, but I am the only one left on the planet. The last image I remember was me with my arms crossed over my chest screaming, bleeding and feeling my bones shatter. Then I wake up. If thats not bad enough things were starting to calm down, my grandfather got better and my friend decided to cool off some, then I came to a horrifying relization about myself......I'm such a fool that I had actually believed it.......its almost funny I guess.....this is my retribution.