Why do I find it easier to fight for other's rights as opposed to fighting for my own? God I hate confrontation, even when I know I have every right to be upset/sad/angry with whatever it is I'm doing the confronting thing about... *takes a breath*
Ok, so I'm having some seriously stupid issues at work, and it's grating on my nerves, but I'm not the best at corporate game playing nor am I particularly fond of the idea on its own. This girl of 27 years has the job I was most likely going to get. We both interviewed for coffee buyer. The original coffee buyer was leaving, but she jeopardized my interview, and I'm not kidding. She asked me questions not related to the interview or my resume, and worded them in a degrading manner.
I have been a barista for about 4 years now, and the girl who stole my job, has been doing it 8 months, and I use that lightly, because she makes god-awful drinks, is slow, and not very friendly. In fact, as soon as she got the promotion, she started acting like a jerk to everyone of our coworkers. She truly does have the I'm-an-ugly-fat-girl-with-power mentality, and in her defense, she is an ugly fat girl. Blind children could use her complexion for braille, if you catch my drift.
My assistant team leader (ATL) is, coincidentally, another ugly fat girl, so they instantly bonded. I have multiple visible tattoos to bond with my ATL but it's not enough, since I'm happy and don't wear make up to cover up my insecurities (or my braille face).
Just recently, we all went out to see our coworker's band play. By the way, Jai Henry and the Minneapolis Henrys are pretty cool. (check myspace for the band) Ok, so we do have a work environment where we can go out and drink around each other and it's cool. Kind of like a big dysfunctional family where you AREN'T related by blood. My ATL proceeds to tell me in her drunken stupor (sp?) that braille-face looooooves me and says I'm so great at my job. I respond with "Well, one guy is new and the other doesn't care. By default, I'm the best, that doesn't mean much." And she says braille-face is so caring, and wants to see us succeed (cha-ching) and this is all she has. My ATL and her apparently only have this job in their lives.
Now how the fuck am I supposed to take that?!? I'm not good enough to have this job?
Braille-face once told me that she was going for the job because she was "older, more experienced, and didn't have school getting in the way of her career." Older? Yes. More experienced? No. And did she just imply that my desire for higher education was GETTING IN THE WAY of a job?
Just so you rabid readers know, I worked practically full time all through school, and that was mostly due to the fact that the jobs I had couldn't offer me 40 hours a week. I was unemployed for the first semester of school. That's it.
Now, this week, I was TOLD I have to work Sunday. My availability is Monday through Saturday, open to close. I have 82 hours of my life devoted to this job, and they want me to work Sunday. I actually am a Christian. I actually go to church on Sundays. IT'S MY CONSTITUTIONALLY PROTECTED RIGHT to practice any religion, and my work is not complying. Don't get me wrong, I'll help out when needed, I'm not an asshole, but usually it's similar to a favor asked of me, in return for getting a different day off, not something I'm told to do, regardless of what I was hired to work.
In fact, when I brought up that I was hired with that availability, my ATL told me "if I had been in charge of hiring and you said that, I wouldn't have hired you." I do believe that was illegal, but lucky for her and I , she WASN'T in charge of hiring. In fact, she just joined our store about a month ago, and I've been there since February.
Does this seem wrong to anyone else but me? And I'm sorry if Christians have been given a bad name, due to numerous assholes who claim to be Christian. I'm sorry if I have a degree and I'm sorry if I have self-esteem. That shouldn't be a reason to punish me. I am still a human being, and just because I'm Christian doesn't make me evil. I'm not Catholic, I kiss girls, I pay people to pour hot wax on me, but I still believe in God and I don't know when that became such a negative thing.nullnull
Ok, so I'm having some seriously stupid issues at work, and it's grating on my nerves, but I'm not the best at corporate game playing nor am I particularly fond of the idea on its own. This girl of 27 years has the job I was most likely going to get. We both interviewed for coffee buyer. The original coffee buyer was leaving, but she jeopardized my interview, and I'm not kidding. She asked me questions not related to the interview or my resume, and worded them in a degrading manner.
I have been a barista for about 4 years now, and the girl who stole my job, has been doing it 8 months, and I use that lightly, because she makes god-awful drinks, is slow, and not very friendly. In fact, as soon as she got the promotion, she started acting like a jerk to everyone of our coworkers. She truly does have the I'm-an-ugly-fat-girl-with-power mentality, and in her defense, she is an ugly fat girl. Blind children could use her complexion for braille, if you catch my drift.
My assistant team leader (ATL) is, coincidentally, another ugly fat girl, so they instantly bonded. I have multiple visible tattoos to bond with my ATL but it's not enough, since I'm happy and don't wear make up to cover up my insecurities (or my braille face).
Just recently, we all went out to see our coworker's band play. By the way, Jai Henry and the Minneapolis Henrys are pretty cool. (check myspace for the band) Ok, so we do have a work environment where we can go out and drink around each other and it's cool. Kind of like a big dysfunctional family where you AREN'T related by blood. My ATL proceeds to tell me in her drunken stupor (sp?) that braille-face looooooves me and says I'm so great at my job. I respond with "Well, one guy is new and the other doesn't care. By default, I'm the best, that doesn't mean much." And she says braille-face is so caring, and wants to see us succeed (cha-ching) and this is all she has. My ATL and her apparently only have this job in their lives.
Now how the fuck am I supposed to take that?!? I'm not good enough to have this job?
Braille-face once told me that she was going for the job because she was "older, more experienced, and didn't have school getting in the way of her career." Older? Yes. More experienced? No. And did she just imply that my desire for higher education was GETTING IN THE WAY of a job?
Just so you rabid readers know, I worked practically full time all through school, and that was mostly due to the fact that the jobs I had couldn't offer me 40 hours a week. I was unemployed for the first semester of school. That's it.
Now, this week, I was TOLD I have to work Sunday. My availability is Monday through Saturday, open to close. I have 82 hours of my life devoted to this job, and they want me to work Sunday. I actually am a Christian. I actually go to church on Sundays. IT'S MY CONSTITUTIONALLY PROTECTED RIGHT to practice any religion, and my work is not complying. Don't get me wrong, I'll help out when needed, I'm not an asshole, but usually it's similar to a favor asked of me, in return for getting a different day off, not something I'm told to do, regardless of what I was hired to work.
In fact, when I brought up that I was hired with that availability, my ATL told me "if I had been in charge of hiring and you said that, I wouldn't have hired you." I do believe that was illegal, but lucky for her and I , she WASN'T in charge of hiring. In fact, she just joined our store about a month ago, and I've been there since February.
Does this seem wrong to anyone else but me? And I'm sorry if Christians have been given a bad name, due to numerous assholes who claim to be Christian. I'm sorry if I have a degree and I'm sorry if I have self-esteem. That shouldn't be a reason to punish me. I am still a human being, and just because I'm Christian doesn't make me evil. I'm not Catholic, I kiss girls, I pay people to pour hot wax on me, but I still believe in God and I don't know when that became such a negative thing.nullnull