rocketeer

So i have been doing a lot of thinking lately ...

I have been drug free now for 3 months and i am really pleased / proud of myself for cutting them out of my life.

But i feel i want more .... more sobriety, more stability and a greater feeling that i am being true to myself.

So, as a result i have decided to totally stop consuming alcohol for an indefinite period of time.

This will come into effect after this weekend. I cannot say how long this will last, all i will say is that i need it.

I am also going eliminate caffeine consumption. I already don't drink coffee, i am just going to extend it to excluding energy drinks (red bull etc) and cola drinks from my diet.

I have done this once before for a period of time so i know i will be able to do this again.

In addition to that i am seriosuly going to make an effort to be less "easy" when it comes to girls. I hate the fact that i can't say no to girls and my current situation is such that i have to many "potential fun scenarios" and none of what i really want, a "genuine serious scenario".

I think i will find this a lot harder to do than cutting out alcohol and caffeine, but again it is something i feel i really must do if i want to be happy with my life and who i am.

If i continue in my current way, sure, i will have lots of fun, but i may miss something with someone really great as i could pass it off as "just another one". If i wait and be patient then i will surely be rewarded, it just may take time.




Soooooooooooooooooo, moving right along now


I am sooo poor. I have a maxed credit card and no savings.

I have a ticket to see Mudvayne
I have a ticket to see NIN

I want a ticket to A Taste of Chaos
I want a ticket to Bleeding Through
I want a ticket to the Rapid Festival
I want a ticket to Blood Brothers
I want a ticket to Billy Corgan
I want a ticket to Alexisonfire

I have a CD wishlist that is sooo long i can hardly remember all of them


Atreyu
Dillenger Escape Plan (*sp)
Martyr AD
From Autumn to Ashes
Throwdown
System of a Down
Shihad
Nofx


Although i interviewed for a couple of full-time graduate positions, i didn't get the jobs so i am still trapped into working at the supermarket.

I really want to get a job now, i am tired of my only assets being my tv, dvd player, my clothes and my cd collection.

and now something a little bit happier....

Last night was a fun night. It was another Brisbane SG hookup, people came from all around to attend and everyone had a great time.

So yeah, that is what is in my mind right now

Food for thought for a starving soul.

Transitional periods of life define who we are, and how we cope with these periods prepares us better for the next.

If we are here, then "where are we"?...

thinking in circles can be fun, but don't think in spirals and stay happy

I'm out

.....ROCK......