Still the countdown continues till i depart these now gloomy, rainy often times dirty Toronto streets. 1 day only now remains and then 5 in BC before i return to the playground of my younger years.
It snowed yesterday, almost as if Toronto itself wanted to grant me one last wish, i desperately wanted to see snow fall once more before i went home.... i shall remember the snow falling yesterday for some time.
I find myself getting more and more depressed..... i have a sadness inside that i can't let out, i know it will pass, but i feel near overwhelmed by the weight of the coming sadness caused by saying goodbye to my friends and companions whom i had the best 6 months of my life with. I can't wait to go home, but until then i am there my heart will be heavy and full of pain.
The Beastie boys played in Toronto Last night, they were fucking insane, so good.....they only proved a distraction from the pain that i have in my heart and in my mind.
I struggled to sleep last night, laying beside Rochelle, the girl who I have spent 90% of the last month with, every night beside her. She was crying......it is hard, i didn't want to meet anyone when i knew that i only had 1 month left in Toronto. .......It seems that when it comes to girls and relationships i am destined for failure or at least heartbreak.........
What of the future, nothing but bright lights on my horizon, memories now of Toronto and Canada seem almost all i have, happy ones, sad ones, they are all part of me now and i look onward with optimism and wonder eternally, when will all this pain cease and happiness be all that i know.
I hate emotions and i hate feeling this way........what i need i can't have ...i'm going home. My life is about to change in a way i can't comprehend...
Tonight is going to be hard ....my football club in Toronto have called drinks for me ....... Roos footy club....i only hope i can cheer up
It snowed yesterday, almost as if Toronto itself wanted to grant me one last wish, i desperately wanted to see snow fall once more before i went home.... i shall remember the snow falling yesterday for some time.
I find myself getting more and more depressed..... i have a sadness inside that i can't let out, i know it will pass, but i feel near overwhelmed by the weight of the coming sadness caused by saying goodbye to my friends and companions whom i had the best 6 months of my life with. I can't wait to go home, but until then i am there my heart will be heavy and full of pain.
The Beastie boys played in Toronto Last night, they were fucking insane, so good.....they only proved a distraction from the pain that i have in my heart and in my mind.
I struggled to sleep last night, laying beside Rochelle, the girl who I have spent 90% of the last month with, every night beside her. She was crying......it is hard, i didn't want to meet anyone when i knew that i only had 1 month left in Toronto. .......It seems that when it comes to girls and relationships i am destined for failure or at least heartbreak.........
What of the future, nothing but bright lights on my horizon, memories now of Toronto and Canada seem almost all i have, happy ones, sad ones, they are all part of me now and i look onward with optimism and wonder eternally, when will all this pain cease and happiness be all that i know.
I hate emotions and i hate feeling this way........what i need i can't have ...i'm going home. My life is about to change in a way i can't comprehend...
Tonight is going to be hard ....my football club in Toronto have called drinks for me ....... Roos footy club....i only hope i can cheer up
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Thank you for the advice on my pics. It's odd because I could resize some of them, but not others. Not sure when the computer is being finicky tonight.