I'm pregnant ....i just don't know how it happened. I spose it could have happened that one time when i slipped. I am so confused and scared, i didn't think it was possible.
hmmmmmmm...............Could it be
morbid fascinations of pain and death, jumping, falling, slicing and dicing. It cuts, but it tickles, burning flesh smelling sweet and conjurring mental images of children running through fields....
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hmmmmmmm...............Could it be
morbid fascinations of pain and death, jumping, falling, slicing and dicing. It cuts, but it tickles, burning flesh smelling sweet and conjurring mental images of children running through fields....
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ok ....very brief update to let the kids know i am alive
come thursday night however; there is going to be a story full of love, romance, danger, action, surprise, mystery, sadness, joy, travel .....well, you get the idea
so much shit has been happening let me tell you
Since i last updated i have had my world as i know it turned upside down...
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come thursday night however; there is going to be a story full of love, romance, danger, action, surprise, mystery, sadness, joy, travel .....well, you get the idea
so much shit has been happening let me tell you
Since i last updated i have had my world as i know it turned upside down...
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liarsenic:
did you kill anyone? 
then you'd be my idol...
then you'd be my idol...
livingdeadkirst:
good to see your still alive!
For Fuck's Sake i am fucking freaking out on an epic level....
Tomorrow i leave Brisbane, I am leaving everything i am. I am chasing my career and I know it is the right thing to do ... so why am i freaking out and feeling such despair.
I have absolutely no reason to be feeling like this, if you guys knew the full extent...
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Tomorrow i leave Brisbane, I am leaving everything i am. I am chasing my career and I know it is the right thing to do ... so why am i freaking out and feeling such despair.
I have absolutely no reason to be feeling like this, if you guys knew the full extent...
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lior:
Yep.
I had to try find one positive out of all the change
I had to try find one positive out of all the change
gravedisorder:
penguin waffles are weird but awesome.
It is always funny to see the reaction of co-workers when they see you for the first time dressed in your regular gear and not a nicely ironed business shirt with "normal" hair and no piercings.
They stared at me when i walked in there today, i just had to drop in a do some shit ...write a letter, finish a report and tidy my...
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They stared at me when i walked in there today, i just had to drop in a do some shit ...write a letter, finish a report and tidy my...
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beaeffeff:
Good luck with the move and everything. Are you leaving SG too or just Brissie?
jibaili:
yay for non-emo updates..
ps.. fuck yeh
take it easy mate
ps.. fuck yeh
take it easy mate
* Please note, this is not an emo update 
, this is due to a couple of fucking incredible days and the fact that i was criticised for having emo / sad journal updates
ok, lets do it
A big fuck yeah goes out to the brisbane members of SG that attended the hookup last night. It was great to have good numbers there and...
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, this is due to a couple of fucking incredible days and the fact that i was criticised for having emo / sad journal updates
ok, lets do it
A big fuck yeah goes out to the brisbane members of SG that attended the hookup last night. It was great to have good numbers there and...
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tech29:
Whats with the kissing a guy thing mate, not that there is anything wrong with that. so thats what goes on at hook ups eh!
So I went on saturday but got there late, 9:30 and could'nt find anyone not that I new what anyone really looked like anyhow
so I had a Vodka and went to the valley. Maybe next time I'll get better organised .
So I went on saturday but got there late, 9:30 and could'nt find anyone not that I new what anyone really looked like anyhow
so I had a Vodka and went to the valley. Maybe next time I'll get better organised .
biancarose:
obvious! it's way obvious dude! you wrote the words to the NOFX song linoleum on your journal and there's about a gazillion pics... he he he.... she's a beautiful, totally nice girl and I know when you fall in lurve you fall really hard... so just remember slow and steady wins the race... I don't want to have to see you mega sad over a girl again... my fingers are crossed for you xxxxxxx mwah, B xxxxxxxx
....oh shit
someone is a little emo,
Alexisonfire were incredible ...damn i love those guys, so good, almost as good as when i saw them play in Toronto 11 months ago.
NIN were great also, i had a great time
i have 1 week till i leave brisbane, i am going to Mt Isa. I figured it out and after benefits it looks like i...
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someone is a little emo,
Alexisonfire were incredible ...damn i love those guys, so good, almost as good as when i saw them play in Toronto 11 months ago.
NIN were great also, i had a great time
i have 1 week till i leave brisbane, i am going to Mt Isa. I figured it out and after benefits it looks like i...
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damnation_game:
ahhh how? spazzmos
damnation_game:
well i guess your lucky one of us is a tall freak then
Fuuuuuuuuck yeah......
The past week has been fucking insane ...so crazy and so awesome.
It all started wednesday last week when i headed to Rev for the Destroy Music Tour .....fucking awesome, I Killed The Prom Queen were intense and everyone else were ok.
Thursday I headed back to The Rev and caught 18 Visions ....they too were really good and the support bands incredible...A...
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The past week has been fucking insane ...so crazy and so awesome.
It all started wednesday last week when i headed to Rev for the Destroy Music Tour .....fucking awesome, I Killed The Prom Queen were intense and everyone else were ok.
Thursday I headed back to The Rev and caught 18 Visions ....they too were really good and the support bands incredible...A...
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rubyred:
any! i just love soup 
im going to try my hardest to be there tomoz nite, i have a fucking family thingy on. ugh hope to see you
im going to try my hardest to be there tomoz nite, i have a fucking family thingy on. ugh hope to see you
traceelement:
Not me although you could ask Jibaili about that...
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[Edited on Aug 27, 2005 12:45AM]
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aaronsrod:
dam that picture makes me wince I just can't handle pain, and to me that just hadta hurt, all power to you but mate and yeah I hope we get a good turn, I think we will though, see ya there mate.
steven:
Nuh, the whole trip has fallen through 
IBM rescheduled the course & relocated it to Sydney. Won't be back in Brissie for a few months.
I like how you gave the "don't want to view the whole set" people your most explicit photo! Well done mate, I'm still challenged by getting my shirt off...
IBM rescheduled the course & relocated it to Sydney. Won't be back in Brissie for a few months.
I like how you gave the "don't want to view the whole set" people your most explicit photo! Well done mate, I'm still challenged by getting my shirt off...just a quick update
yesterday i got 2 new piercings; i got a pa and i also got my third frenum piercing ...yay, that takes my piecing tally to 13, and in 5 weeks i am getting 14 and 15...depending on how i am healing
I got the job in Mt Isa, so i have 2 weeks to gather my stuff and head to central...
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yesterday i got 2 new piercings; i got a pa and i also got my third frenum piercing ...yay, that takes my piecing tally to 13, and in 5 weeks i am getting 14 and 15...depending on how i am healing
I got the job in Mt Isa, so i have 2 weeks to gather my stuff and head to central...
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aaronsrod:
Dude you are on your way up, good luck I look forward to having a fairwell drink with you soon.
aaronsrod:
I couldn't help myself sorry
but the suspence was killing me so I caved and posted
Welcome back Lolly and Farewell Rocketter Hookup
I hope this works for you cheers mate
but the suspence was killing me so I caved and posted
Welcome back Lolly and Farewell Rocketter Hookup
I hope this works for you cheers mate
hmmm...sooo much is happening
looks possible that i will be moving to bumfuck nowhere in order to pursue my career. I could be going to Mt Isa in remote Queensland where there is no music scene.
why i hear you ask, for $53k / year & possible car incentive.
and not only that, i will be on a pay / experience / award level that...
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looks possible that i will be moving to bumfuck nowhere in order to pursue my career. I could be going to Mt Isa in remote Queensland where there is no music scene.
why i hear you ask, for $53k / year & possible car incentive.
and not only that, i will be on a pay / experience / award level that...
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merchbitch:
you saw billy corgan at the tiv? i did merch there. this is what i thought of the merch 
worst range i have seen in 10 years of selling shirts. oh well. can't wait for sigur ros. hopefully i'll be feeling better....
worst range i have seen in 10 years of selling shirts. oh well. can't wait for sigur ros. hopefully i'll be feeling better....
livingdeadkirst:
totally sweet dude! sucks about the isa though. guess you just have to make sure this is something you really wanna persue.
and piercings rock! YAY for piercings
and piercings rock! YAY for piercings
Life continues on its ups and downs.
Last night i went out to watch some football and to just imagine nothing was happening, imagine i was free of the emotional torment i am enduring.
I told my mother the other day, fighting back tears i told her. Noone had ever heard what i told her, where i was, how low i was, noone. Now she...
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Last night i went out to watch some football and to just imagine nothing was happening, imagine i was free of the emotional torment i am enduring.
I told my mother the other day, fighting back tears i told her. Noone had ever heard what i told her, where i was, how low i was, noone. Now she...
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lamentdoll:
You hair somewhat reminds me of Robert Smith.. from the Smiths. 
steven:
That's always the friggin way ... as soon as I rock up, the good bands run for cover!
Hmmm, well a few weeks yet to go, maybe something decent will come up.
Hmmm, well a few weeks yet to go, maybe something decent will come up.
some times life can be good
and then the next day it can FUCKING SUCK
i feel lonely, numb, empty, rage, anguish, fear, dispaire, pain, pain, pain, pain ........
and then the next day it can FUCKING SUCK
i feel lonely, numb, empty, rage, anguish, fear, dispaire, pain, pain, pain, pain ........
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biancarose:
dude, obviously your best mate isn't your best mate... otherwise he wouldn't be kickin' it with your ex that said that crappy thing to you... just think of it this way, they deserve each other and they don't deserve to be your friend - you're way better than all that crap. Obviously each of them doesn't really care about you or your feelings... friends that go out with friends ' ex's (especially best friends) are a total no no... fuck 'em my friend, move on... I wasted so much time trying to work out or salavage dud friendships... when the positive energy and trust is gone from the friendship it's way over... even if they broke up today and he said 'man I'm sorry' and you forgave him and you guys started hanging out again things will never be the same you'll always have that betrayal in the back of your mind and it'll keep eating at you... It's so sad your mate is willing to put his friendship with you aside for a fuck... you're an awesome guy and if this girl was such a bitch to you I'm sure she'll do it to him too... it's only a matter of time... as the saying goes.. leopards don't chnage their spots.... have a rad day beautiful don't let them beat you down - rise above - my thoughts are with ya! hugs, B xx
iii:
Hope things improve sir. Good thoughts from the T-Dot.
B
xx