Must we continue to play the same songs on a brand new stereo?
I just returned from Chicago tonight. This has been interesting. It's late, so I'm going to ramble.
Youth is far too often awarded to those who did nothing to earn it. I visited with my second cousins this weekend. They're still young, innocent. Not to say that I'm old and wiser than anyone out there, but...it's a far distance between. In some ways I miss the days of youthful innocence (so long gone for me), but in some ways I don't see them all that appealing.
Old age is wasted on the elderly. I visited my grandmother's grave today. She was a stubborn woman, from a harsh time. She had been fighting health problems for years, thus leaving me quite surprised when she passed in early November of this year. I've seen people come and go, live and die, but she had almost trascended time for me. I suppose in some way I found her to be invulnerable. Try as I might, and get assurances as I have, I can't help but feel guilty that I couldn't manage to be up there to say goodbye.
Why do so many girls no longer in my life find it so hard to let go? I will not try to make myself believe in something that's not there, B. I will not be manipulated, A. I'm not going to be a dildo to comfort you, S.
I'm tired. A large mix of dreary everyday activities, finals, and spending the last 5 days on the road has made me weary.
There was an earthquake in the area near my grandfather. We haven't had any luck contacting him. I dearly hope he is alright, but luckily I've learned to expect the worse and hope for the best.
Things are simultaneously the best and the worst they've ever been, and I'm just looking for forward movement at this point.
Sorry that this won't make any sense. I just wanted to see if reading what's been going through my head unedited would give me any answers.
I just returned from Chicago tonight. This has been interesting. It's late, so I'm going to ramble.
Youth is far too often awarded to those who did nothing to earn it. I visited with my second cousins this weekend. They're still young, innocent. Not to say that I'm old and wiser than anyone out there, but...it's a far distance between. In some ways I miss the days of youthful innocence (so long gone for me), but in some ways I don't see them all that appealing.
Old age is wasted on the elderly. I visited my grandmother's grave today. She was a stubborn woman, from a harsh time. She had been fighting health problems for years, thus leaving me quite surprised when she passed in early November of this year. I've seen people come and go, live and die, but she had almost trascended time for me. I suppose in some way I found her to be invulnerable. Try as I might, and get assurances as I have, I can't help but feel guilty that I couldn't manage to be up there to say goodbye.
Why do so many girls no longer in my life find it so hard to let go? I will not try to make myself believe in something that's not there, B. I will not be manipulated, A. I'm not going to be a dildo to comfort you, S.
I'm tired. A large mix of dreary everyday activities, finals, and spending the last 5 days on the road has made me weary.
There was an earthquake in the area near my grandfather. We haven't had any luck contacting him. I dearly hope he is alright, but luckily I've learned to expect the worse and hope for the best.
Things are simultaneously the best and the worst they've ever been, and I'm just looking for forward movement at this point.
Sorry that this won't make any sense. I just wanted to see if reading what's been going through my head unedited would give me any answers.
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I'm really sorry to hear about the earthquake near your grandpa. I hope you hear from him ASAP, and that everything's all right.
My grandma died last year on the 21st of December...she was 81. I know absolutely what you mean when you say she seemed to be invulnerable. Heck, my grandma was NEVER, ever even sick. :\
Well, anyway, I hope you have a lovely christmas tomorrow, and I hope everything works out for you soon, dear. Much love to you always.
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heathyr