Life Sucks
I really dont know what to think about life anymore. I am so sick of all the bullshit that goes on right under my nose and then when I find out about it I am silenced and my feelings arent heard. I really dont know what to do anymore. I feel like I am just supposed to deal with it but how. If I hold all my feelings in I am an emotional wreck and if I let them out it is another arguement about the same damn thing and it never changes. I mean should I really leave. I feel like I cant. I love him to much and it scares me to think of life without him. But when I see these things about look for internet flirting relationships I just want to slit my wrist. Why does he need these things. He doesnt but he always has an excuse and we always resolve the issue and it comes right back. I feel like sometimes I wont let myself be happy. That it isnt him it is me. I really dont know anymore. I just feel like giving up all the time anymore and I have never been this way.
Ok sorry that I am being depressing I am just lost in my life right now and I dont know what to do and I just really need cheered up
I really dont know what to think about life anymore. I am so sick of all the bullshit that goes on right under my nose and then when I find out about it I am silenced and my feelings arent heard. I really dont know what to do anymore. I feel like I am just supposed to deal with it but how. If I hold all my feelings in I am an emotional wreck and if I let them out it is another arguement about the same damn thing and it never changes. I mean should I really leave. I feel like I cant. I love him to much and it scares me to think of life without him. But when I see these things about look for internet flirting relationships I just want to slit my wrist. Why does he need these things. He doesnt but he always has an excuse and we always resolve the issue and it comes right back. I feel like sometimes I wont let myself be happy. That it isnt him it is me. I really dont know anymore. I just feel like giving up all the time anymore and I have never been this way.
Ok sorry that I am being depressing I am just lost in my life right now and I dont know what to do and I just really need cheered up
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And if I could find my camera, I'd post a funny picture of myself for you. Alas, I have no idea where I put it. So, instead, here's SG's monkey. Monkeys make *me* happy.
It is hard to leave the familiar. When I left my ex, who I had been with for 3 and a half years, it was because we kept having the same fights, he kept telling me he'd change (I think just to end the fight and shut me up) and then things would carry on as usual. I got sick of it. I was miserable and I decided that I'd rather be miserable alone, with a chance at finding happiness, than stay with him and keep going in circles.
I'm not saying that is necessarily the right decision for you since I do not know your specific situation. Just wanted to let you know that I've been there and know what its like to be scared to leave someone you love who refuses to change or consider your feelings.
Hugs!