What a lovley day.
I hit up the gym before the snow storm hit. I went to the market too, and purchased whipped cream and hot chocolate for me and The Lost boy!! I think the Lost boy is experiencing symathy PMS, because he is eating chococlate donuts and drinking hot chocolate and is gonna make chocolate pudding later for us!! Mmm, I' not too...
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Kisses to all who left me such sweet comments. I love recieving comments, it makes me so fucking happy. When I worte that whole thing I thought I may end up contridicting myself in the future with differnt entries so I am just gonna state this shit now as to avoid confusion later.
While I will not be a dancer again-not a stripper at least-...
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missmontana:
have a monkey!
and whats a monkey without a banana playing guiter?
[Edited on Jan 21, 2005 1:03PM]
and whats a monkey without a banana playing guiter?
[Edited on Jan 21, 2005 1:03PM]
How I got into the sex industry
From a very young age I developed the idea that a womens greatest power was her looks. Lets not bullshit-looks matter. Looks matter in our society in particular, where beauty is seen as a more desirable quality then, oh lets say kindness. Oh it's true-statistics prove so. In one survey I once read, it reported that kids in...
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From a very young age I developed the idea that a womens greatest power was her looks. Lets not bullshit-looks matter. Looks matter in our society in particular, where beauty is seen as a more desirable quality then, oh lets say kindness. Oh it's true-statistics prove so. In one survey I once read, it reported that kids in...
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jill:
"i knew that I took a sick pleasure in knowing the fact that men saw me as a peice of meat-a fantasy, nothing ever real."
I feel exactly the same
i dont know why i feel thtat way though
i get turned on just by the idea of people fantasising about me
that is why i love SG
when i meet guys in real life that know me on here
i feel like i have this power over them
and i like it
is that bad????
and i've always had a thing for guys 2-3 years younger then me
just because i know that they think it's hot to be with a chick older...
isn't that wierd
i like to make people's fantasy's come true
not that everyone wants me.....
but i've alwyas been overly confident about my outward appearance
and i'm horrible when it comes to sharing how i feel
i could go on forever.... i'm gonna post this in my journal and tell everyone to come read yours too!!!!
and about stripping
i'm not doing it for money
i'm doing on the side of doing hair
it's not gonna be my main job..
i'd do it 3 night a week at most
i'm sorry i dont want to be rude
but i just dont agree with you on everything
not everyone in the sex industry is that fucked up
i was never abused in any way
but ever since i can remember i have always been a very sexual person
it just seems like u are slamming the entire business
not everyone does it cause they were ruined
and have fun
dance the night AWAY!!!!!!!!!!!
I feel exactly the same
i dont know why i feel thtat way though
i get turned on just by the idea of people fantasising about me
that is why i love SG
when i meet guys in real life that know me on here
i feel like i have this power over them
and i like it
is that bad????
and i've always had a thing for guys 2-3 years younger then me
just because i know that they think it's hot to be with a chick older...
isn't that wierd
i like to make people's fantasy's come true
not that everyone wants me.....
but i've alwyas been overly confident about my outward appearance
and i'm horrible when it comes to sharing how i feel
i could go on forever.... i'm gonna post this in my journal and tell everyone to come read yours too!!!!
and about stripping
i'm not doing it for money
i'm doing on the side of doing hair
it's not gonna be my main job..
i'd do it 3 night a week at most
i'm sorry i dont want to be rude
but i just dont agree with you on everything
not everyone in the sex industry is that fucked up
i was never abused in any way
but ever since i can remember i have always been a very sexual person
it just seems like u are slamming the entire business
not everyone does it cause they were ruined
and have fun
dance the night AWAY!!!!!!!!!!!
missmontana:
Ro-
I am sorry that shit has been so rough for you. I understand a lot of what you are talking about and comend you for being brave enough to share it with us.
I don't know if it will be helpful for you, but I have always tried to just look at unfortunant, nay, horrible things that happen as a way to learn about the people who are more common and ignorant then myself. I hate hearing the old everything happens for a reason speel myself and do not believe it happens for any reason other then some sick persons idea of a good time. Just take what you can from the fucked upd situation and walk away from it. Use it to make yourself the tough bad ass chick I know you are anyway!
If you feel uncomfortable in the sex industry just stay away from it. Many people who share siimilar issues find it to be both a trigger and a trap.
As far as the drug thing... You know what you have to do to help yourself. Let me know if you need any help.
I think you are a smart, caring girl who deserves all the happiness life could give... Sometimes you just have to get out there and find it.
I am sorry that shit has been so rough for you. I understand a lot of what you are talking about and comend you for being brave enough to share it with us.
I don't know if it will be helpful for you, but I have always tried to just look at unfortunant, nay, horrible things that happen as a way to learn about the people who are more common and ignorant then myself. I hate hearing the old everything happens for a reason speel myself and do not believe it happens for any reason other then some sick persons idea of a good time. Just take what you can from the fucked upd situation and walk away from it. Use it to make yourself the tough bad ass chick I know you are anyway!
If you feel uncomfortable in the sex industry just stay away from it. Many people who share siimilar issues find it to be both a trigger and a trap.
As far as the drug thing... You know what you have to do to help yourself. Let me know if you need any help.
I think you are a smart, caring girl who deserves all the happiness life could give... Sometimes you just have to get out there and find it.
The past twenty four hours has been a first for me-I have used my kitchen to cook in all by myself. I have a gas stove, and I am sorta scared of it because a few years back, the boy I was dating caught himself on fire via stove. Now, he didn't have a gas stove, but the fact I can see the flames always...
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jill:
why havent u been dancing?
i cant go a week without dancing somwhere!
i'm always dancing at home though
i cant go a week without dancing somwhere!
i'm always dancing at home though
jill:
when are u gonna become an SG
Sometimes I think about my family, really think about my family.
I love my family, even though sometimes they make me feel like I am going to cry.
I think they think that I am a loser.
I am not a loser-at least not for the reasons they think I am.
It makes me want to cry only because they don't know, they don't see...
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I love my family, even though sometimes they make me feel like I am going to cry.
I think they think that I am a loser.
I am not a loser-at least not for the reasons they think I am.
It makes me want to cry only because they don't know, they don't see...
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You are on my shoulder
and I am still so fucking stoned
You make my cells itch, but it doesn't bother me when my lungs are filled with 'dro.
Dedicated to my cat Pandora
and I am still so fucking stoned
You make my cells itch, but it doesn't bother me when my lungs are filled with 'dro.
Dedicated to my cat Pandora
Today I have too much shit to do
I have to work, go to the dmv, go to the post office, must workout, must speak to trainer, must pick up car, must go to school and sign up.
Mmy birthday is coming soon-yeah, and sorta scary. I wonder what 22 shall give way to. My few years in the twenteis have been..."eventful"
20-moved from folks,...
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I have to work, go to the dmv, go to the post office, must workout, must speak to trainer, must pick up car, must go to school and sign up.
Mmy birthday is coming soon-yeah, and sorta scary. I wonder what 22 shall give way to. My few years in the twenteis have been..."eventful"
20-moved from folks,...
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I just wanted to give a big props to Godsmoker. I read his journal and I recieved such a sweet mention, and if it wasn't for him I highly doubt I would of even met the rest of you, so heres to Godsmoker! Everyone raise their glasses,blunts,lighters,or whatever the fuck people raise these days.
Mad Love Godsmoker
Everyone raise their glasses,blunts,lighters,or whatever the fuck people raise these days.
Mad Love
GodsmokerThis is what I did since my cars been gone.
Since Lulu (my honda civic) was abducted, I have called the phone company and had my cell phone shut off temporarily. I am really upset about that, cause my phone books were also in the car, so I do not have anyones number, and I can't reach anyone cept through e-mail, and ..... Plus, if...
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Since Lulu (my honda civic) was abducted, I have called the phone company and had my cell phone shut off temporarily. I am really upset about that, cause my phone books were also in the car, so I do not have anyones number, and I can't reach anyone cept through e-mail, and ..... Plus, if...
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Some asshole stole my car at the 7'11. I lost my wallet, my cash, credit, and cell. I feel so angry and depressed. I want my shit back.