It was such a time
I had always known, but a ex boyfriend of mine taught me the only way to meet the right people in life was to meet all people, and to just talk. This simple reminder has served me very well in my life, and generally gives me extremly interesting stories about my adventures on the out and about.
My first morning it Pittsburgh went something like this.My girl called up one of her homies and me, her, and were one of her other chicas all were picked up. The four of us went to a really killer coffee place that allowed us to smoke. This is a big deal for me being from New York where the law has prevented us tax paying smokers to indulge in our god giving right to give ourselves lung cancer-bad joke-. Anyway there, we met this guy who was dressed in army camoflouge and anti nazi patches. He looked at me and said hello. I was like "whats up!" and he was like"you have beautiful hair." and I was like "thanks kid" and he's like "I'm a hair dresser so I would know." I couldn't resist talking to this kid, cause he just seemed like such a crazy fuck-he had this wierd look in his eye. He joined my friends and I am began to tell us how he was a 25 year old gay,feminist,anti nazi, ex army guy who had once been married, but now was widowed being that she died of liver cancer leaving him 2 kids. He also told us he happened to be a herion addict for three years, and had lunch with Angelina Jolie. I know things like this could be true, but I totally smelled a lunatic with a extreme lieing problem. The other girls sensed this too, but we all had fun indulging this whack in conversation until he began to piss me and one of the girls off with a debate on Jesus. Hhe himself was a wiccan. I have also practicd wicca for several years till it lead me to less the "stellar" things and gave it up. But anyway, he was trying to say he thought Jesus was a schitzo and I told him that he was a moron because people with that could not lead the life Jesus did and have the impact he had on people/ and history. At his age, if he had schitzophrenia, he would of totally been unstable and he would have already been locked up or stoned. I don't care if people agree with me about Jesus or not, on him being God, but don't argue with me about mental shit, cause you will definetly loose. Yyou do not spend the better part of your life in shrinks office and not learn a thing or two!! Anyway, me and one fo the other girls kicked ass with our arguments and soon scared the ex herion, anti nazi, gay feminist away. HAHA
Anyway, later that night, at the hookah bar, we had such a great time. We smoked coconut and vanilla flavored tabacco, and you totally get a head rush from it because a hookah hits harder then a cigarette. Its like if you smoke from a bong instead of a joint. The conversation was fun and light, all about sex and what we have done and things we wanted to do. The girl who had joined me in debating the guy at the coffee house and I found we had more then our interest in Jesus in common. We found we were both a bit gayish as well, and I found her giving me the "look". I thought we might get it on later that night at the party but me and my girl left early very drunk and tired.
Anyway, I had a chance to really think on my trip, being that both train rides are crazy long, and I gained some serious perspective and stregth. I thought of my family, and my friends and who they were and where they wanted to go, and where they were actually going. I decided that I knew what I wanted and I know who I want to be, and anyone or thing that stops me needs to leave me the hell alone. Life is hard and it can turn people hard. But I believe life should be lived as if life wasn't as such. I want to be the person that I would be if I had never been hurt, never had been touched wrong, or had never seen something sad. I want to still wear my heart on my sleeve, even if I have to sometimes keep in hiddle by a hoodie sweatshirt. If thew world is really what we make it, I make my world a place where baggage and bullshit is not tolerated. I do not care anymore if I am the only person who lives in that world.
PEACE
I had always known, but a ex boyfriend of mine taught me the only way to meet the right people in life was to meet all people, and to just talk. This simple reminder has served me very well in my life, and generally gives me extremly interesting stories about my adventures on the out and about.
My first morning it Pittsburgh went something like this.My girl called up one of her homies and me, her, and were one of her other chicas all were picked up. The four of us went to a really killer coffee place that allowed us to smoke. This is a big deal for me being from New York where the law has prevented us tax paying smokers to indulge in our god giving right to give ourselves lung cancer-bad joke-. Anyway there, we met this guy who was dressed in army camoflouge and anti nazi patches. He looked at me and said hello. I was like "whats up!" and he was like"you have beautiful hair." and I was like "thanks kid" and he's like "I'm a hair dresser so I would know." I couldn't resist talking to this kid, cause he just seemed like such a crazy fuck-he had this wierd look in his eye. He joined my friends and I am began to tell us how he was a 25 year old gay,feminist,anti nazi, ex army guy who had once been married, but now was widowed being that she died of liver cancer leaving him 2 kids. He also told us he happened to be a herion addict for three years, and had lunch with Angelina Jolie. I know things like this could be true, but I totally smelled a lunatic with a extreme lieing problem. The other girls sensed this too, but we all had fun indulging this whack in conversation until he began to piss me and one of the girls off with a debate on Jesus. Hhe himself was a wiccan. I have also practicd wicca for several years till it lead me to less the "stellar" things and gave it up. But anyway, he was trying to say he thought Jesus was a schitzo and I told him that he was a moron because people with that could not lead the life Jesus did and have the impact he had on people/ and history. At his age, if he had schitzophrenia, he would of totally been unstable and he would have already been locked up or stoned. I don't care if people agree with me about Jesus or not, on him being God, but don't argue with me about mental shit, cause you will definetly loose. Yyou do not spend the better part of your life in shrinks office and not learn a thing or two!! Anyway, me and one fo the other girls kicked ass with our arguments and soon scared the ex herion, anti nazi, gay feminist away. HAHA
Anyway, later that night, at the hookah bar, we had such a great time. We smoked coconut and vanilla flavored tabacco, and you totally get a head rush from it because a hookah hits harder then a cigarette. Its like if you smoke from a bong instead of a joint. The conversation was fun and light, all about sex and what we have done and things we wanted to do. The girl who had joined me in debating the guy at the coffee house and I found we had more then our interest in Jesus in common. We found we were both a bit gayish as well, and I found her giving me the "look". I thought we might get it on later that night at the party but me and my girl left early very drunk and tired.
Anyway, I had a chance to really think on my trip, being that both train rides are crazy long, and I gained some serious perspective and stregth. I thought of my family, and my friends and who they were and where they wanted to go, and where they were actually going. I decided that I knew what I wanted and I know who I want to be, and anyone or thing that stops me needs to leave me the hell alone. Life is hard and it can turn people hard. But I believe life should be lived as if life wasn't as such. I want to be the person that I would be if I had never been hurt, never had been touched wrong, or had never seen something sad. I want to still wear my heart on my sleeve, even if I have to sometimes keep in hiddle by a hoodie sweatshirt. If thew world is really what we make it, I make my world a place where baggage and bullshit is not tolerated. I do not care anymore if I am the only person who lives in that world.
PEACE
and i work tonight..
i dunno how much business i'll get up there
but we will see.....