rochelle

I have recieved a marrige proposal! It was a joke, and it is really sad I am actually happy about it, but still, it does not happen everyday....You know who you are.


Today is my moms birthday.
We have a strange relationship. I am very sensitive over the topic of her, and I do not want to really talk about her. In short, despite the reasons our relationship is so "odd", I love her.

My father,sister, and I took her to this very chic italian restuarant. I ordered chicken It was a nice dinner, a genarally nice evening.

This holiday weekend was so fucking good. Xmas itself was very mellow, which is what I wanted. In the evening the Lost boy came to see me, and we exchanged gifts-he baught me the two very pretty, tres sophisticated looking journals-high quality paper. I baught him the dark crystal film and this super cool book by Marc Baptiste, since we both share a love of nude photography.

I watched him sleep. He braught a garbage bag full of movies. We started with Watership Down-what a fuckin classic flick, have not seen that since I was like 7 or some shit. It still scares me too-the rabbit that sees the blood . We watched Blue crush, and as embarrassing as it is I was sorta into it. Ii liked those girls bodies, also, I suddenly found myself wishing I knew how to surf. I could learn, but I heard Sharks think surfers are seals on ice blocks, and my desire to keep my limbs attached to my body is far stronger then my desire to be able to "catch" a wave.
Keif also baught me Haigen diez-vanilla stlye!! We sat there, eating it out of the carton, all giddy like school girls. We watched so much shit. The next day we played Monopoly with my sister while drinking vodka and cooking Hamburger helper. God help me, I know it is cheesy. But those two nights and three days with him were incredible. I mean, it was all fairly simple, but I was so happy with him there with me, to have him close, I found myself being all gushy and puppy eyed, and not trying to hide it. I wanted to tell him that I loved him, and that I wanted him to stay with me forever, but Ii thought that would be sorta creepy. I mean, I think I need to control myself a bit. I don't want to scare him away with my over zelousness, but really, he's the mick to my mallory! The Louis to my Claudia. Oh, he let me give him a facial and totally groom him like he was my pet monkey
That was super fun. Maybe I will by him a dress, and he will buy me a pair of timbs and we can switch roles for a day.
I always wanted to wear a strap on.

Speaking of sex, I was watching porn today-ever hit up the bangbus website?? Ii like it better then lesbo 101. I use to love lesbo 101, but latley it has really sucked.

I need to clean my damn apartment. I have mad dishes in my sink.

I also have written a couple of new poems to add to my writing portfolio, and I have an idea for a series of short stories, so if I am not too tired when I am done with cleaning up this place, I'm gonna try to start writing.

Peace.