Hey all,
I just got home from dinner with my main girl a few moments ago. I hope life is always like this, well not just like this, but I hope no matter how old I am, even at 80, that I am still eating veggie wraps at crappy ass diners at 1 am, and going to the super market really really late. I want to be the type of women who serves pancakes for breakfast and orders dessert first at restaurants. I guess I am already that women, but I am hoping these things catch on with the public. It could be the new "thang".
I got massive attack on my playlist right now. I am chain smoking, and trying to convince myself to go to sleep. Ii have to get my hair cut tomorrow. Maybe I'll take some pictures soon and post them. I need to take some pictures. I have so many pics of myself with peeps Ii am not to fond of now. Ii need no pics.
To answer all my peeps who inquired about Elizabeth Wurtzel, heres the 411: Ok, so this women is one of my biggest comforts and inspirations etc. As a writer, and a fellow sullen person-her memoirs have really hit home and given me comfort and insite into myself, and people in general. Anyway, so she has written two memoirs 1)Prozac Nation-young and depressed in America, which is her book she wrote at 27 about being depressed and being one of the first people in the u.s. to be proscirbed the ever famous "happy pill". 2) More now and Again-a memoir of addiction, which is her memoir written in her early thirtees, like maybe 31 or some shit, about being addiction to ritalin and coke.
She has also written Bitch, which is a book of essays on the subject of women.
Anyway, her memoirs are beautifully written, shrewd, and just so fucking relatable. I really admire writers who have the patience to dive back into the childhood and work their way to their present self-who can construct this detailed picture of how they evolved into the person they are now-even if the person isn't that great. I find her very honest, and intelligent, and her books gave me such hope. Not really because she had an answer, but because here was this women I really felt-like I was reading about me, and when your like 14 or whatever age I was when I read prozac nation, to be able to acknoledge these certain feelings/traits in yourself. To learn how to really pull yourself apart...While it can be sorta damaging, I feel in the end it is for the best, because honesty is always the best thing. To quote Fiona Apple "There is no good or bad, just true or false." I personally believe that any emotion, positive or negative, if you feel it purely, then it is ok-no apoligies. Iif you don't like what you feel, if your honest about it with yourself at least, then you can really change it. You can't work with lies.
So back to Wurtzel, I read the memoir of addiction a lot, because it seems in my life many of the people close to me all have some sort of addiction, including myself, and I am always fasinated by how wonderful, talented, beautiful people can come to be such slaves to this thing or that. I guess some of us don't really see ourselves, not how others do at least. I don't know:the subject of addiction is sorta complex to write about right now, and it is different for everyone. Still, if you are an addict or know someone who is, you should really read it. Its insightful. I think why Ii like Elizabeth Wurtzel best is that when she writes about herself, she not only paints the picture of the girl who is an addict, or who is depressed, but she paints the picture of the girl I think we all may have once been at a time, or might have known. I mean, she talks about what it is to desire really simple shit when we are younger, and how we have our dreams smashed as we grow. I really am not doing her justice-in my defense, I am becoming tired, but really-check out prozac nation or more now and again.
I just ordered two books, both on the topic of Incest. I am interested in writing some sort of book on the subject, though I am not sure how I want to address the topic. Its a very personal project to me, as all my projects, but this one is really special, because I think it may be sorta cathartic for me, and I also know the subject is something that really needs to be addressed more. I hate to be niave, but it still shocks me how many people who have been sexually abused or molested by a family member, worse, how many people in the family know about the events and nothing is done about it. I just want to put out something that will touch people, that will help people, that will get people thinking. Most importantly, I want to reach the people who hold this secret with them-just so they know that they are not alone and shit. Its real cliche, but hey, most things are when you think about it.
I need to sleep!!
Good night!
I just got home from dinner with my main girl a few moments ago. I hope life is always like this, well not just like this, but I hope no matter how old I am, even at 80, that I am still eating veggie wraps at crappy ass diners at 1 am, and going to the super market really really late. I want to be the type of women who serves pancakes for breakfast and orders dessert first at restaurants. I guess I am already that women, but I am hoping these things catch on with the public. It could be the new "thang".
I got massive attack on my playlist right now. I am chain smoking, and trying to convince myself to go to sleep. Ii have to get my hair cut tomorrow. Maybe I'll take some pictures soon and post them. I need to take some pictures. I have so many pics of myself with peeps Ii am not to fond of now. Ii need no pics.
To answer all my peeps who inquired about Elizabeth Wurtzel, heres the 411: Ok, so this women is one of my biggest comforts and inspirations etc. As a writer, and a fellow sullen person-her memoirs have really hit home and given me comfort and insite into myself, and people in general. Anyway, so she has written two memoirs 1)Prozac Nation-young and depressed in America, which is her book she wrote at 27 about being depressed and being one of the first people in the u.s. to be proscirbed the ever famous "happy pill". 2) More now and Again-a memoir of addiction, which is her memoir written in her early thirtees, like maybe 31 or some shit, about being addiction to ritalin and coke.
She has also written Bitch, which is a book of essays on the subject of women.
Anyway, her memoirs are beautifully written, shrewd, and just so fucking relatable. I really admire writers who have the patience to dive back into the childhood and work their way to their present self-who can construct this detailed picture of how they evolved into the person they are now-even if the person isn't that great. I find her very honest, and intelligent, and her books gave me such hope. Not really because she had an answer, but because here was this women I really felt-like I was reading about me, and when your like 14 or whatever age I was when I read prozac nation, to be able to acknoledge these certain feelings/traits in yourself. To learn how to really pull yourself apart...While it can be sorta damaging, I feel in the end it is for the best, because honesty is always the best thing. To quote Fiona Apple "There is no good or bad, just true or false." I personally believe that any emotion, positive or negative, if you feel it purely, then it is ok-no apoligies. Iif you don't like what you feel, if your honest about it with yourself at least, then you can really change it. You can't work with lies.
So back to Wurtzel, I read the memoir of addiction a lot, because it seems in my life many of the people close to me all have some sort of addiction, including myself, and I am always fasinated by how wonderful, talented, beautiful people can come to be such slaves to this thing or that. I guess some of us don't really see ourselves, not how others do at least. I don't know:the subject of addiction is sorta complex to write about right now, and it is different for everyone. Still, if you are an addict or know someone who is, you should really read it. Its insightful. I think why Ii like Elizabeth Wurtzel best is that when she writes about herself, she not only paints the picture of the girl who is an addict, or who is depressed, but she paints the picture of the girl I think we all may have once been at a time, or might have known. I mean, she talks about what it is to desire really simple shit when we are younger, and how we have our dreams smashed as we grow. I really am not doing her justice-in my defense, I am becoming tired, but really-check out prozac nation or more now and again.
I just ordered two books, both on the topic of Incest. I am interested in writing some sort of book on the subject, though I am not sure how I want to address the topic. Its a very personal project to me, as all my projects, but this one is really special, because I think it may be sorta cathartic for me, and I also know the subject is something that really needs to be addressed more. I hate to be niave, but it still shocks me how many people who have been sexually abused or molested by a family member, worse, how many people in the family know about the events and nothing is done about it. I just want to put out something that will touch people, that will help people, that will get people thinking. Most importantly, I want to reach the people who hold this secret with them-just so they know that they are not alone and shit. Its real cliche, but hey, most things are when you think about it.
I need to sleep!!
Good night!
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All-night diners are great! I wish we had more where I live. All of a sudden everyone wants to close after 12am...WTF??
I agree with Jill on her comment up above!