Things are not well. What I thought was turning around is crashing and burning...and with it everything I can see as good.
I am at the edge and leaning out...arms spread wide. I'm scared.
This isn't a cry for help. I'ts a way to empty out this over whelming pain.
I need a magic person. I need an attractive female who will just hold me and care for me while I whine and complain about my ex. Then some comfort sex. I need to feel like someone wants me...
I need to feel alive. I tried cutting my arm with a kitchen knife to feel something...and I didn't feel it. Then I noticed I had really shitty knives... How lame is that?
I want to call out of work tomorrow...just stay at home and cry...but if I do....I don't know if I'll ever come out of that hole.
I don't know what to do. I don't want to talk to anyone...and yet I need someone to talk to. I don't want to be with anyone...and I'm acutally feeling sick from being alone.
I need that magic person.
If any cute females even remotely close to me want to come here and help me. PLEASE let me know. I'm not kidding. I don't need the sex part, though I do want sex and am clean. But to have someone just hold me and comfort me...I'm tired of being strong on the outside.
Please.
I am at the edge and leaning out...arms spread wide. I'm scared.
This isn't a cry for help. I'ts a way to empty out this over whelming pain.
I need a magic person. I need an attractive female who will just hold me and care for me while I whine and complain about my ex. Then some comfort sex. I need to feel like someone wants me...
I need to feel alive. I tried cutting my arm with a kitchen knife to feel something...and I didn't feel it. Then I noticed I had really shitty knives... How lame is that?
I want to call out of work tomorrow...just stay at home and cry...but if I do....I don't know if I'll ever come out of that hole.
I don't know what to do. I don't want to talk to anyone...and yet I need someone to talk to. I don't want to be with anyone...and I'm acutally feeling sick from being alone.
I need that magic person.
If any cute females even remotely close to me want to come here and help me. PLEASE let me know. I'm not kidding. I don't need the sex part, though I do want sex and am clean. But to have someone just hold me and comfort me...I'm tired of being strong on the outside.
Please.
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allied:
No more AIM since I got my new computer. Got a Yahoo Messenger account, vaughnbauer. But, I'm headed off to sleep. I'll be on tomorrow (late morning, early afternoon) if you want to chat. Later.
kreatinkaos:
Flux tonight ?