As an introvert, you think it would be easier for me to meet and talk to people on the web, but unfortunately that does not seem to be the case. I honestly don't think my life is that interesting. I have no close friends, I don't go out much, I have never dated or had a girlfriend, and right now the progress of my career and artwork has been slow, to say the least.
I paint and draw, mostly. I like to paint from the work of other artists, like the Caravaggio above. I would like to learn digital illustration someday, but I really enjoy painting in oils and acrylics. Geez, my camera is really terrible. Can anyone recommend a free photoshop program to try and brighten these pictures up?
I am a depressive that has been on S.S.I. since the age of 18. Social situations make me very anxious. I am considering whether to give up completely on the hope of an intimate relationship and focus on and find fulfillment in my work. I try to console myself with the idea that not everyone experiences love in their life, and some great artists and writers led lonely, isolated lives. Of course that does not help.
I keep trying to meet people, and there have certainly been good times, but most days I am by myself in my apartment. My fear is that I've grown too comfortable with that.
So there it is. I hope to find full-time work and return to school for a Master's in English; other than that, there is not much to say. My life in Portland, OR has so far been a scary, uncertain adventure. Lost in the woods, you might say.
