Livejournal example:
Someone please convince me that the reason we are alone in the universe isn't because life was a one time mistake. Ya know, just contemptible abberation, forever blemishing the order established by calmer, less excitable planets. Tell me we aren't the malformed calf born blind and lame, limping through dark space without a clue or a destination. Until we stumble over ourselves one final time, and then gag and die. Earth feels like such a pitiful, aimlessly and mindlessly flailing and failing creature. I'm sure that, on some level, everyone has at least an inkling of that feeling.
The thing is that we are not animals, and thusly can't be content to just spend our days mating and feeding until we die. There're no laws of nature establishing the need for currency and industry. We came up with those on our own. And I think the fact that so many civilizations (places far enough away from each other to develop independantly) were able to come up with systems of land and property ownership shows that it's in our nature to be like that. Corporations and sweatshops and mindless consumerism are (and I'm not exaggerating at all) going to ruin the world until they finally kill us. Like I said, I think that's just how we are and I guess that means we can't really blame anybody. Humanity has an innate self-destruct mechanism and (surprise, surprise) we're the kings of the only known planet containing life. It just feels like, to me, that maybe this is a jokey experiment that's just inching along until it fulfills the theorized conclusion.
Yeah, that was just me spitting my brain out for a second. I might clean it up later, the splatter. For the record, I am aware that that was just pointless cynicism at its worst. Can't do anything about it right now.
My first reaction after that was to delete it completely, just because the idea of anyone reading it kinda mortified me (though nobody really reads the ole' LJ, so not much worry there 
). Course, I chose not to and chose to pass it off as a random thought, "I know its stupid and I don't care so that makes it okay for me to say it" kinda thing.
But ahh!
I want to be able to say whatever's on my mind, but I also don't want to sound like a total idiot. I know my thoughts on idiots, and I sure don't want people thinking those things about me.
