Ok, so today I'm feeling better. How could I not with it being such a fucking gorgeous day? Went to a mixer this afternoon for artists across disciplines to get together and work on projects for the arts festival this fall. Looks like I may be working on a performance piece using my video, my friend's music and some girls from the school of dance....
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Tonight i just hurt 
"Maybe I should hate you for this ... I never really did ever quite get that far..." - Taking Back Sunday
"Maybe I should hate you for this ... I never really did ever quite get that far..." - Taking Back Sunday
winter_____:
I'm sorry. I hope things get better for you soon.
winter_____:
OMG, for real?! That would be so awesome.
Tonight I went to a mixer co-sponsored by the music club and the sexual health and disease education organization. I got a lot of condoms and lube and a dental dam, but I didn't get anyone to use any of it with. it was kind of fun though.
the thing about things falling apart is you get to look at the pieces that are left behind and see what you want to keep and how you want to put it back together
maybe it will never be the same as it was, but realize it doesn't have to be. things are constantly changing. its really quite selfish and silly to resist something so...
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maybe it will never be the same as it was, but realize it doesn't have to be. things are constantly changing. its really quite selfish and silly to resist something so...
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elisabeth:
This is so true. Let's hang somehow and someway before I leave in a few days. You have the digits, hope that you're doing well 
oso:
well i haven't heard from Chang's since i got messy drunk in there Monday night, so i may be okay. i work tonight and they haven't told me NOT to come in.....
i start scheduling for the summer next month. i have 4 guys and a backup right now, but i think 2 of them maybe gone quite a bit, so if you're willing, i may be able to use you. dunno how many days though, we only do the door thing on the weekends. i will get in touch though.
take care my man!!
i start scheduling for the summer next month. i have 4 guys and a backup right now, but i think 2 of them maybe gone quite a bit, so if you're willing, i may be able to use you. dunno how many days though, we only do the door thing on the weekends. i will get in touch though.
take care my man!!
Some things could really be happening for me. I don't want to jinx any of it or put too much stock in it, but I'm feeling pretty good.
elisabeth:
Excellent
Some of the stuff I've seen for entertainment recently, the movies One Hour Photo and Willard and the play Machinal, kind of have me worried about a lot of things, or at least thinking. None of these works have happy endings thus pulling fantasy closer to reality. They are about outcasts, the ones who never fit in. You watch as their lives spiral out if...
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hazardstar2:
...i can't wait to get the hell out of this state...i might go to grad school, but if i do it won't be for another year or so after i graduate, since i'm graduating in december...i can't wait to just move around, live in new places all the time, meet people, learn things...not be tied down. yes. hmmm have a good night! 
elisabeth:
You know what? The only judgment you have to worry about is your OWN. Fuck everyone else. It's all about realizing who you are and what you're capable of. This journal resonates so closely with what I've been feeling lately, esp. about the leaving bit and feeling weird at the same time. We are all transforming, esp. when we're not really ready for it, but if NOT now, then when, I wonder?
time off ... or at least not on so much is what i'll be doing.
emaline:
what is the secret of nimh?
oso:
thank you!!
how are you doing with that thing we talked about?
how are you doing with that thing we talked about?
Being a jaded optimist is a difficult way to live. But I wouldn't have it any other way.
elisabeth:
I agree wholeheartedly. Be well, have a great week
so lately i've been feeling pretty withdrawn. i don't know if its my fault, another reason to hate myself. i am working on making myself better, but its a slow process.
elisabeth:
Actually, I'm afraid that it's a neverending process. If you haven't already, I implore you to read The Road Less Traveled by M.Scott Peck.
Did karaoke last night. I sang blink 182's "All the small Things" I only got to go up once, but i want to go back now so i can do Ugly Kid Joe's "Everything About You".
I only got to go up once, but i want to go back now so i can do Ugly Kid Joe's "Everything About You".
emily:
Nice
Here's to love and friendship and emptiness. Here's to you and all the adventures we could have had together and the fact that you left that all behind.
ps Happy St Patty's day
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..more more more... current soundtrack:
Taking Back Sunday's "Cute Without the E (Cut From the Team)" and a wierd mix that cuts between Madonna and H20's versions of "Like a Prayer"...
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ps Happy St Patty's day
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..more more more... current soundtrack:
Taking Back Sunday's "Cute Without the E (Cut From the Team)" and a wierd mix that cuts between Madonna and H20's versions of "Like a Prayer"...
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Woohoo spring break! Not like I have anywhere to go or anybody to do anything with.
oso:
i'm soooo looking forward to seeing you tonight!!!
oso:
10 should be just fine.
you may even be able to find parking then!!
you may even be able to find parking then!!
Be well.