I need help, i'm scared, and don't know what to do.

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so many bridges burnt, so many lies told, i'm feel alone, because i am, i can't stop putting this stuff into my body, when i say i'm done, i'm too weak to follow through with it, everyone is tired of me, and i don't blame them. I'm just a burden in everyone's life, i'm afraid of making new friends because i will just end up wreaking havoc in their life and that is not what i want. I don't want to use people, or lie to them. I want to be a good person, I don't want to hurt anyone. I hate hurting people. i feel like i was a good person at one point in my life, But that was so long ago. All the people that are left in my life are not good for me to be around. There just like me, and sick people can't help sick people. I don't know why i'm posting this shit anyway, maybe its a cry for help, but it just sounds like i'm feeling sorry for my self, and having some sort of pity party. All i know is i better figure out something because i can't take much more of this shit.

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robinsteal1980:
Thank you that's probably what I'm going to do. I'm going to do it. I have to do it!! NA has helped alot of people, but where I'm from it's just a place where people can sell their drugs, and meet a quick bag whore. Not a very good place. But I feel that if I turn myself in to mental health they should help me at least find a footing to where I need to be. I feel so humiliated by this, and think people look at me in disgust if I even mention I use drugs. It's hard for me to reach out in person for help, the world is so judgmental, but maybe it's all in my head, which is another good reason to contact mental health services. Thank you for caring it means alot
mrbungle:
Robin, keep posting letting us know how you are getting along. I will offer support as far as I am able. Remember when you are on the programme you will need to build up your arsenal because it is going to get very tough. I can honestly say though that some of the best people I have met have been ex-junkies. But it will be so easy to slide back into old habits which is why you need support and a faith in yourself being a better person. Take care and give yourself this chance.

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