It takes great courage and a mind fortified and strong to not believe, to fully understand what it is to not believe in anything beyond what we can observe, to leave questions unanswered and to accept your own insignificances. When signs point to a limited future and a finite existence, despair creeps in, life seems meaningless and the difference between existence and non existence seem ever so unimportant. I can't help but then ask what is there to live for? In the grand scheme of things, nothing. However if I embrace my own insignificance and accept that my world is small I can find simple things to enjoy despite the knowledge that none of it matters, so I'll have fun while I exist because it seems like the most reasonable thing to do when my world is so small and I can see its borders. I envy those that are able to not think about it, that can accept a happy ending, their minds block out the truth for their own sanity. Where is my safety blanket? Where is my sanity?
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