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This week's been full of ups and downs in my health and such. I got really frustrated last Friday. I got my surgery scheduled which is so amazingly awesome, but for some reason I thought that'd make me feel better... you know... make the sickies go away. And shortly after the appointment all the running around caught up with me and I crashed EXTRA hard. It sucked something awful and brought me really down when I realized my limitations.

I think I kind of needed that wake up call though cause it several things.

First, it made me really come to terms with my limitations. I've canceled all additional makeups for the time being... in fact until my gall bladder is out. I'm barely keeping up with classes now and keep coming in extra to make up for the time I missed/how slow I have to operate to keep from crashing. I've learned to focus on the goal of the day and just getting what I need accomplished now done and nothing else.

Also, it made me realize that I needed to find a brainless activity that was slightly more active and went out and bought the Sims2 and the University expansion pack. It's perfect for me right now cause I'm so drained I don't expect much and it takes zero energy. It's like I get to make the sims do what I want. This game is sadly my savior right now as it keeps me from getting as depressed as I had been.

And lastly, I've started taking my prescription vicodin when I'm at home and need it. It takes away the pain and tenderness from my gall bladder as well as the headaches that come with it sometimes and makes the nausea/dizziness not seem so bad (thanks vicodin high) so that I can actually push through everything to work at home more. I obviously can't do this at school, but at home it's been a big help.

I'm so glad my surgeon spent so much time talking to me about all my symptoms and what makes them worse/better. It's nice to know that everything I'm experiencing is perfectly normal.... considering what shape my gall bladder is. Makes me worry less.