riona

I'm so scared that one of these phone calls from my dad is going to be bad news. He is still recovering from his SECOND open heart surgery and just called to tell me he has a decent sized blood clot that has formed in his leg. So my step-mom is taking him to the Heart Institute of Arizona so they can "fix" it. Whether that means operating or giving him blood thinners, I don't know. As soon as I said 'I love you' and hung up I started crying. I'm sososososo scared that one of these days its going to be a phone call I hope I never have to get.
This hits me pretty hard. I have a tendency to pass out and fall, which i guess is a symptom of 1 of my dad's 2 heart conditions. I went to his doctor a couple weeks ago and had a test done. So as soon as I get approved for AHCCCS (Arizona Health Care Cost Containment System) I have to go back and get an echo-cardiogram done, a stress test, and I have to wear an event monitor for a whole MONTH. I guess its better to find out NOW than when its too late huh?

I just needed to vent. Thanks