Okay, so I figured I would write an actual blog post instead of just a couple of sentences, because welll idk this is my only blog that I really keep up with and it's nice to go and read stuff when I forget.
Anyways, my life has been really boring lately. It's consisted of nothing but working and sleep. Literally.. I work.. I come home around 7pm lay in my bed and then wait until I get tired and pass out. All my friends have become wack, I don't even know who to consider real friends anymore. Because, when I was growing up, friends were people that actually wanted to hang out and talk.. My phone hardly rings and I hardly see anyone besides the people I work with.
Hmm, my boyfriend comes home from Maryland in one month and one day. I am really excited.. I haven't seen him in two months and the only way he was able to come home was to do hometown recruiting... So I'm pretty much barely going to see him while he's here anyways.. between that and his friends stealing him away. I feel like I put in soo much effort to eventually be let down. But this is coming from someone whose last real relationship was when she was 16. I have no idea about guys, how to make them happy, how to make them become not bored of me, how to know if they really like me or not, and how to not overreact over silly things. I've spent the last six years pretty much living the single life only dating people for maybe a week or so and not even really be serious about it... and be like whatever when it ended. All these feelings are new to me and definitely not something I felt when I was 16 either. Anyways, Keith leaves to Germany April 19th or something. This makes me fucking devastated. I don't know what I should do. He asked me to go with him when we first started dating and then quickly took it back when his best friend had something to do with it. Soo, ehh, I don't know what to do!! Germany is soo fucking far :[ If I knew how he felt about me maybe I'd be more than happy to wait it out. But he doesn't talk about his feelings. I feel that he's slowly getting there.... slowlyy.. I asked him to open up to me more, but he doesn't say anything. Maybe people take more time than others, but I've certainly built up this wall over the last six years that no one has EVER been able to tear down except for him, without even trying.
FUCK!!!!!!!!
Advice would be nice >.<
Anyways, I'm obsessed with this website.. it seems to get me thru the days.. http://fmylife.com check it out !
Anyways, my life has been really boring lately. It's consisted of nothing but working and sleep. Literally.. I work.. I come home around 7pm lay in my bed and then wait until I get tired and pass out. All my friends have become wack, I don't even know who to consider real friends anymore. Because, when I was growing up, friends were people that actually wanted to hang out and talk.. My phone hardly rings and I hardly see anyone besides the people I work with.
Hmm, my boyfriend comes home from Maryland in one month and one day. I am really excited.. I haven't seen him in two months and the only way he was able to come home was to do hometown recruiting... So I'm pretty much barely going to see him while he's here anyways.. between that and his friends stealing him away. I feel like I put in soo much effort to eventually be let down. But this is coming from someone whose last real relationship was when she was 16. I have no idea about guys, how to make them happy, how to make them become not bored of me, how to know if they really like me or not, and how to not overreact over silly things. I've spent the last six years pretty much living the single life only dating people for maybe a week or so and not even really be serious about it... and be like whatever when it ended. All these feelings are new to me and definitely not something I felt when I was 16 either. Anyways, Keith leaves to Germany April 19th or something. This makes me fucking devastated. I don't know what I should do. He asked me to go with him when we first started dating and then quickly took it back when his best friend had something to do with it. Soo, ehh, I don't know what to do!! Germany is soo fucking far :[ If I knew how he felt about me maybe I'd be more than happy to wait it out. But he doesn't talk about his feelings. I feel that he's slowly getting there.... slowlyy.. I asked him to open up to me more, but he doesn't say anything. Maybe people take more time than others, but I've certainly built up this wall over the last six years that no one has EVER been able to tear down except for him, without even trying.
FUCK!!!!!!!!
Advice would be nice >.<
Anyways, I'm obsessed with this website.. it seems to get me thru the days.. http://fmylife.com check it out !
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my live is bored now too =/
kisses hunny
Long distance relationships are hard, how stereotypical of me to say right? haha I can't stand to be in them, yet I always find myself in them. I'm into someone who's on tour 9 months out of the year, It blows. Half the time he's too busy with work in the day to even text me. I just go with it, I've learnt the hard way that being needy and trying to get guys to tell you their feelings or have feelings they don't pushes them away. I say ride it out, his feelings will come out in time. Unless your unhappy then don't waist your time.
And Fmylife is the shit, my best friend and I read it every Sunday as we drink our coffee haha
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