This has been a crazy-ass weekend.
* Me and myy off-and-on ex, the woman I work with, were playing around outside the restaurant on Saturday. She was trying to grope me (as she usually does- to everyone) and I jokingly pushed her away. Well, that didn't go so well. She jerked her elbow back and it went through one of the glass windowpanes. I freaked out of course, grabbed her arm, opened the door, started crying- all at the same time. Luckily, the restaurant was still open and there were a lot of people around, so we got her all bandaged up. She swears she didn't even feel it, but we finally convinced her to go get stitches the next day. It turned out to be a fairly mild injury (compared to what it could have been), but I felt absolutely horrible. Luckily, she's a great person and knows I would never, ever hurt her, so when I started crying and saying how sorry I was later, she laughed and told me not to worry about. And then I told her that's what you get when you try to grope your ex. Haha
* The next night, me, her g/f and another girl I work with, Ang, all went out to Henrietta's and got a little drunk. Now, I've known that Ang has a crush on me, but I didn't want to go there for a lot of reasons. Ang has and off-and-on girlfriend that she is currently off with. But, I know they will get back together and so does she. But, apparently Ang and alcohol= a secret-spilling fest. She told me that when she's around me she "feels as if her whole body is tingling and she can feel everything." I waited with her at the train station and when it was time to go, she kept saying, "Should we do this? Should we do this?" I ended up just giving her a hug (and she kissed my neck) and then she left. The girl was drunk. Sober Ang is all about responsibility and being level-headed and to be honest, kind of square. I knew all this. I was not going to take advantage of her slackened inhibitions. This morning she sent me an email apologizing for her behavior. She's leaving for Maine in 2 weeks and hopes that when we hang out, that she can control herself and we can be great friends.
We shall see.
* No news from my dad, yet. He hasn't responded to my email in any way, shape or form, and as far as I know, he hasn't called my brother, either. Most likely, he's erased my phone number, told his church members that I died and hired a hit man to get rid of me before anyone else finds out about my little problem.
* My new favorite song is "Burn It Blue" by Caetano Veloso from the "Frida" soundtrack. Listen to it. It's so heartbreaking and beautiful.
* I need a girlfriend. A real one. One that wants to be with me, not just sleep with me and then disappear or decide we should become great friends. I need someone that I can be there for. I've missed that.
* Me and myy off-and-on ex, the woman I work with, were playing around outside the restaurant on Saturday. She was trying to grope me (as she usually does- to everyone) and I jokingly pushed her away. Well, that didn't go so well. She jerked her elbow back and it went through one of the glass windowpanes. I freaked out of course, grabbed her arm, opened the door, started crying- all at the same time. Luckily, the restaurant was still open and there were a lot of people around, so we got her all bandaged up. She swears she didn't even feel it, but we finally convinced her to go get stitches the next day. It turned out to be a fairly mild injury (compared to what it could have been), but I felt absolutely horrible. Luckily, she's a great person and knows I would never, ever hurt her, so when I started crying and saying how sorry I was later, she laughed and told me not to worry about. And then I told her that's what you get when you try to grope your ex. Haha
* The next night, me, her g/f and another girl I work with, Ang, all went out to Henrietta's and got a little drunk. Now, I've known that Ang has a crush on me, but I didn't want to go there for a lot of reasons. Ang has and off-and-on girlfriend that she is currently off with. But, I know they will get back together and so does she. But, apparently Ang and alcohol= a secret-spilling fest. She told me that when she's around me she "feels as if her whole body is tingling and she can feel everything." I waited with her at the train station and when it was time to go, she kept saying, "Should we do this? Should we do this?" I ended up just giving her a hug (and she kissed my neck) and then she left. The girl was drunk. Sober Ang is all about responsibility and being level-headed and to be honest, kind of square. I knew all this. I was not going to take advantage of her slackened inhibitions. This morning she sent me an email apologizing for her behavior. She's leaving for Maine in 2 weeks and hopes that when we hang out, that she can control herself and we can be great friends.
We shall see.
* No news from my dad, yet. He hasn't responded to my email in any way, shape or form, and as far as I know, he hasn't called my brother, either. Most likely, he's erased my phone number, told his church members that I died and hired a hit man to get rid of me before anyone else finds out about my little problem.
* My new favorite song is "Burn It Blue" by Caetano Veloso from the "Frida" soundtrack. Listen to it. It's so heartbreaking and beautiful.
* I need a girlfriend. A real one. One that wants to be with me, not just sleep with me and then disappear or decide we should become great friends. I need someone that I can be there for. I've missed that.
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I have this creeping feeling that I probably am. It worries me to no end. Hahaha, what a square reaction.
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