ricketycricket

goddamn life is frustrating right now... fucking cut off from my friends because i have no vehicle... hate being single especially when my ex girlfriend lives right up the street from me and all i want to do is be with her but i can't because i fucked everything up and now my depression basically cripples my ability to communicate with anyone on a normal level... especially her since i over-analyze every fucking thing i say to her due to an insane fear of fucking things up even more... and to top shit off my former best friend is ducking me for the thousand bucks that he and his piece of shit ex- porn star girlfriend are in debt to me for... i'm really trying to vent my frustrations here to try and blow of some steam but every day it just seems more and more inevitable that this current series of events is only going to end with me seriously hurting someone or myself...