Have you ever done something your whole life, then one day discover it has a name? Then when you learn the name, you become one with the universe?
The majority of my adult life, I have always found myself attracted to girls much younger, or if my own age, who acted extremely immature. Then it got to a point, that I began to date young women, who acted way younger then they should. I thrived on it. Of course it also led into more fun discoveries. A little light BDSM soon became a more dedicated use of heavy bondage and discipline. All the while though, what I was doing seemed to be so wrong. I felt dirty. Yes, she might be 26, but we are watching a Disney movie and she is wearing mouse ears and a pair of panties, while grinding her ass into my crotch.
Now for some perspective, this was the late 80's into mid 90's. We had finally begun to accept what the Village People had been up to at the Y, because Frankie told us to Relax. And though not much, it did help spark the beginning of what would be the triumphs of todays LGBTQ community.
As for the BDSM community, well it was still in the shadows, sprinting between doorways. A throwaway gag on sit coms like "Roseanne". Only relegated to cheesy porn, and sex scandals. So to be in that community, and to have a thing for young girls... well you might as well have branded "Pedophile" on my forehead. In a sense that is what it felt like. I had a sexual desire for children. Of course we now know, that my actions are a healthy sexual lifestyle. I don't want to have sex with children after all. I want to have sex with women who act like children. Uh wait. Doesn't sound right. Women who like to act like children. So now I am just praying on women who may have a mental problem, or low IQ's? Well that is a confidence boost. I am not a Pedophile, I am a Predator (and that is how it would of been construed back then.). Luckily, we are no longer back then, and yes, a 45 year old women who wants to get spanked, wears diapers, and enjoys a good stuffy/paci combo, is also leading a normal, healthy sexual lifestyle. Don't ask me to explain it. I make pop tart sprinkles, I don't ubderstand the math of Shrinkology.
Which leads us to the point of this ramble. As I age bitterly and fighting it every step of the way. I have discovered that what I am is a Daddy. I have relationships with little girls. I didn't realize it until I was called it. And at that moment, I took that title, and wore it proudly. I am a Daddy. I enjoy being that fatherly figure, helping to guide my little girl in everyday life. And when she is a good girl I will spoil her, and when she is a bratty girl I will put her over my knee. All right. So lets get back into dating. Well remember that movie, with that one guy, said "Alright, Alright, Alright" and become super famous. Neither do I. anywho, that old movie line is true. I may be getting older, but they are the same age. My recent relationship has a 26 year age gap. Which once again, is a healthy, sexual lifestyle. More and more I discover that young women between the ages of 25 and 35, are seeking out this age difference. They are called sugar babies and gold diggers... I kid. Only half fit that profile. The other half are seeking long term relationships. And the interesting thing is, they are not in the DD/lg lifestyle. These are normal everyday people. Gone are the days of the creepy old guy in a trenchcoat, living in a van, down by the river. Gone are the jokes about the 28 year old supermodel, dating the 88 year old billionaire. We can proudly step out with our gray hair and canes, with a beautiful young woman on our arm. Oh wait.....
Now I find myself facing the next societal hurtle. Age Gap Discrimination. From overheard conversations, I either have a giant joystick, or a shit ton of money. Neither are true. I think I have more money then joystick to be honest, but not by much. Of course I have also heard the other nonsense as well, she must not be bright enough to get a man her age, she is obviously a bimbo, she is probably sucking him dry of every penny. Sometimes I do want to approach the people and say, "Hi. I am 51, she is 25. We are in a serious relationship. We are equal partners in this relationship. I am sure your son/nephew/neighbor kid is the same age as her, but she does not care to date him. I also could be dating women of my own age, but I as well don't want to. I am not immature, or trying to take advantage of her, she is not a bimbo and doesn't care about my 2 dollars and 63 cents. Please accept the fact it is no longer 1950 and please join the 21st century." Then hit them with a baseball bat. Seriously though. It is time to stop judging people for their lifestyles. If you made it this far you are probably the only other one who has.
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