ribena

ok i know...it's been a while.
that's because so many things happened to me in these last 4 months that i'm still stoned and confused...i'm still trying to figure out what exactly happened to me actually.
In two words, i've lost everything that seemed to be my normal life: job and boyfriend.
this is not so weird actually. the weird thing is how i'm reacting.
specially in these last days i'm starting to understand what passes in stolker's mind, for exemple.
I'm full of rage and hate, that's the true. i totally hate him now, i tryied to "stay friends" but i quickly realized that this philosophy just doesn't fuckin' work for me.
i hate him
and it's not only this. i want him too suffer actually. i want to level off the shit.
i dream about how to get revenge, i want to gut his wheels....

any suggestions? if possible some clever strategy which could avoid me prison or penalties or public humiliations....

well....

waiting for ur precious advices!!!!!