rhapsody

how can it seem that you have everything that you ever wanted... but you still feel empty? i want to be happy, but my heart won't allow it. mind in one place, heart somewhere else. have i just gotten comfortable b/c it's been so long? i can't run away; i have no where to go. but sometimes i want run. to start over. or maybe rewind to a better time when i was so sure. so sure of what to say. what to do. maybe i just need to meet more people of like minds. but i don't know where to start. it's not like you can just walk up to someone on the street and say "Hey! you don't look so bad. wanna talk for a bit?" fuck it. i'll just go have a shot of vodka and listen to music in my room....