rexx

i wish i lived in a world where we didnt put so much of our faith into machines

at any given hour of any given day, at some intersection, somewhere
with not a car in sight,
theres always one person that stops.
waits for the walk sign.
goes.
never a car in sight.

i always laugh a little.

its not that serious, baby.

most things aren't.

in other news i spent sunday at the zoo.

spent a good while staring at the sea dragons and jelly fish
and thinking:
how can one succumb to the worries of the world
how can we live with obstacles to what we truly want
(obstacles are only in the mind. they only exist if we allow them to exist)
how can we take anything too seriously besides living life to the fullest,
for what we want and love and not what's easiest. what will raise the least question,
when such wondrous and seemingly impossible creatures exist as these?

a thought that somehow made sense and didn't at the same time,
but it was there.

i moved on to the penguins and was standing transfixed as they zipped past through the water
children were screaming. pointing. crying. complaining. poking the glass.
running into me and everyone.
strollers took up space.
people looked unhappy, took up space.
couples held hands and stopped and walked on.
some smiled and it was nice,
some took up space.
babies shit their diapers.
penguins dove and swam
and didn't care.
the world stood still.
people looked hurried, dissatisfied,
took up space.
i just didn't understand the sadness and strange clarity in that moment at all
but i did understand, perfectly.

i smiled and walked on.
wondering what do i really want, now.

whats next.

i could use a drink over good conversation flowing like the hair of a mermaid in the sea.
flowing like the sea itself.
meaning something like the sea
(in winter, sunrise, noone around)

i could use the sea.

something deep and wondrously paralyzing.



anyway i'm at the coffeshop and my time is out.

this probably makes no sense at all

<3 Rexx

p.s. thanks again for all the sweet comments on my new set
technicolor