rexx

i am fond of rarely being on the internet these days,

but i miss you guys!

mannnn i am exhausted.

my job is starting to annoy me.
i'm getting antsy.
i'm sick of paying for car insurance.
and rent when i am always on the go....

i did a massive 'stuff reduction' last week. placing everything i havn't thought about in the past two weeks in bags to give away or throw away or attempt to sell without a second thought. gone. it feels good. i hate stuff.

this entire year i have barged head first for every gut feeling, indulged every whim without a care, and it has been nothing short of fucking incredible. so free, so happy. and really free and really happy for the first time. bliss. this is being alive. and now that i've started i don't plan to stop.


i can finally get the breathalyzer removed from my car on tuesday...
(one of the final steps in paying for the mistakes of a former version of myself)

in about a month i plan on selling my car for whatever i can get, grabbing a greyhound discovery pass, and skipping down the road to anywhere.

my car will never make it on a cross country road trip and its exhausting trying to find someone tolerable and someone who no explanation necessary just 'gets it', to accompany me on such a journey. so i've decided to make it on my own. and i'm actually even more excited about it.

i hope to camp in the badlands again.
eat a metal burger at kumas corner in chicago (determined after catching a glimpse on the food network while taking a bong rip two days ago)
meet up with the boyfriends band in california
see slayer/cannibal corpose/manson in san francisco
of course go to pittsburgh whenever my heart desires
and just look at the world through the window
contemplate life over a little tent-side fire
live out of my pack
meet anyone and everyone
catch a few rides
visit a couple of my favorite brewerys
relieve leather bound journals, waiting to be filled
read read read read read read read as much as i want for all those deliciously lonely hours on the road
(nowhere to go, noone to interrupt....)




perhaps i've really gone bananas this time.
and bananas i shall be.
for life is grand.

and the fact that i just google image searched 'bananas' and this came up just completely solidified my decision:




well, i am exhausted from running around from state to state and city to city from work to home to city to state and back again for the past month. so on this lovely saturday night i am relishing in complete nerdiness. incense is burning. perhaps a bit of smoke. watch where the buffalo roam and read some of the dharma.

and make chocolate chip waffles.


mmm. this is going to be a fabulous night

ciao/meow.

<3 Rexx

p.s. i also feel compelled to inform you that i committed my first act of treason last night by burning an american flag for justifiable reasons and with great people using a half bottle of lighter fluid, a joint, and a bottle of sailor jerry...

viva!