ladies aaaaand gentlemen.....
FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK.
ok so i had pretrial this morning and saw my probation officer.
EVERY DAY FROM NOW UNTIL AUGUST 26TH (AKA, THE ENTIRE SUMMER) I AM TO WAKE UP BETWEEN THE HOURS OF 6 AND 8 AM....MONDAY TUESDAY WEDNESDAY THURSDAY FRIDAY SATURDAY AND SUNDAY. AND CALL TO SEE IF I AM BEING RANDOMLY TESTED FOR ALCOHOL AND DRUGS THAT DAY. TEHREFORE I, HEATHER, THE BIGGEST ALCOHOLIC OF EVERYONE I KNOW, MUST BE SOBER EVERY FUCKING DAY AND NIGHT UNTIL MY COURT DATE.
is this possible?
what am i going to do?
seriously..............................i am speechless.
this week has been bad enough considering i havn't gone more than 3 days without drinking heavily since oh, 2004???????????????????????
and noone i know does anything but drink. i really don't even know if i'm capable of being around it and not taking a sip. and i can't even do that, because once i've had one i know i won't stop.
this is ludacris.
i mean i guess its an opportunity for me to better myself and find new friends and hobbies and explore life a bit....but i also can't even leave the state or general area in case my color is called the next morning.
everything happens for a reason.....i'm just waiting for this one.
so if anyone wants to take me out for applejuice or something, holla atcha girl rex!
shitfuckcuntbitchmotherfucker. omggggggggggggg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
sorry, i had to get that out of my system :-)
p.s. tegan coddington is freaking amazing. if you havn't seen her deviant art you should check it out, i want to get some of her work tattooed on my dead people arm haha. i think i'll start putting the 150ish bucks i was spending on alcohol every week into a tattoo fund? expect full sleeves by the fall :-D
well, hope everyone has a lovely weekend. i must now find new forms of debauchery other than the drink and the drug to feed my wild side.
FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK.
ok so i had pretrial this morning and saw my probation officer.
EVERY DAY FROM NOW UNTIL AUGUST 26TH (AKA, THE ENTIRE SUMMER) I AM TO WAKE UP BETWEEN THE HOURS OF 6 AND 8 AM....MONDAY TUESDAY WEDNESDAY THURSDAY FRIDAY SATURDAY AND SUNDAY. AND CALL TO SEE IF I AM BEING RANDOMLY TESTED FOR ALCOHOL AND DRUGS THAT DAY. TEHREFORE I, HEATHER, THE BIGGEST ALCOHOLIC OF EVERYONE I KNOW, MUST BE SOBER EVERY FUCKING DAY AND NIGHT UNTIL MY COURT DATE.
is this possible?
what am i going to do?
seriously..............................i am speechless.
this week has been bad enough considering i havn't gone more than 3 days without drinking heavily since oh, 2004???????????????????????
and noone i know does anything but drink. i really don't even know if i'm capable of being around it and not taking a sip. and i can't even do that, because once i've had one i know i won't stop.
this is ludacris.
i mean i guess its an opportunity for me to better myself and find new friends and hobbies and explore life a bit....but i also can't even leave the state or general area in case my color is called the next morning.
everything happens for a reason.....i'm just waiting for this one.
so if anyone wants to take me out for applejuice or something, holla atcha girl rex!
shitfuckcuntbitchmotherfucker. omggggggggggggg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
sorry, i had to get that out of my system :-)
p.s. tegan coddington is freaking amazing. if you havn't seen her deviant art you should check it out, i want to get some of her work tattooed on my dead people arm haha. i think i'll start putting the 150ish bucks i was spending on alcohol every week into a tattoo fund? expect full sleeves by the fall :-D
well, hope everyone has a lovely weekend. i must now find new forms of debauchery other than the drink and the drug to feed my wild side.
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I hope things work out well for you. If you keep yourself busy with other outlets, I'm sure the time will go by fast.