i'm losing my fucking mind here in pittsburgh.
i'm sick of every girl around me complaining about how fat they are. jesus fucking christ. or if you are fat, fucking do something about it.
eat healthy. exercise. and SHUT THE FUCK UP.
i don't know why this annoys me so much, but it does.
i'm going home in 6 days but that is way too long. i work everyday. and do the same shit. with the same people. thank god for actually getting to go out drinking with some new people last night.
i need to be 21, right now.
i also need to move back to richmond, right now.
why is it that i constantly meet great guys that show extreme interest in me, but for some reason i'm not into them. and then when the RARE occasion comes along where i meet someone that grabs my attention, i have no idea how to act and fuck it all up?
caring doesn't work out too well for me. i'm hoping this changes soon. because a recent let down is killing me, and its probably all because of my own fault. which makes it even worse.
its not that i like to chase what i can't have....but i seem to chase it away. what the fuck is wrong with me. seriously have some sort of mental blockade when it comes to showing emotion towards anyone. i've probably met the love of my life and acted like a complete bitch towards them and don't even know it. its either i'm getting too much attention or i'm not getting enough from anyone that i ever meet. do i have the fucking problem...or am i just meeting all the wrong people for the past two years of being single.
being single and wild seems to work for me....
but i want a relationship at this point, too.
i need a guy who can actually keep up with me. who can fucking hang, and drink, and not give a fuck. someone who isn't afraid to get crazy and take risks. someone who i can randomly say "hey, lets drive across the country. right now. and will actually do it. if you're a fucking pussy, heads up...i'm not going to like you. if all you care about is having the biggest plasma flat screen in town and every video game system known to man kind....i won't be impressed. i need someone real. i need someone who just doesn't give a fuck and is always up for anything. i need someone with their own personality, and their own life. i need someone who can carry on an intelligent conversation and actually has some sort of interesting outlook on life. i need someone spontaneous.
does this exist?
FUCK.
pittsburgh can suck my dick right now. all i need is to go the fuck home and be around some new people and scenery and buy cheap cigs and see my family and friends.
six days heather...six days.
i have to work tonight, i don't want to go :-(
wow...sorry about being miss negativity. i hate that shit.
just had to rant.
hope everything is peachy out there in SGland
i'm sick of every girl around me complaining about how fat they are. jesus fucking christ. or if you are fat, fucking do something about it.
eat healthy. exercise. and SHUT THE FUCK UP.
i don't know why this annoys me so much, but it does.
i'm going home in 6 days but that is way too long. i work everyday. and do the same shit. with the same people. thank god for actually getting to go out drinking with some new people last night.
i need to be 21, right now.
i also need to move back to richmond, right now.
why is it that i constantly meet great guys that show extreme interest in me, but for some reason i'm not into them. and then when the RARE occasion comes along where i meet someone that grabs my attention, i have no idea how to act and fuck it all up?
caring doesn't work out too well for me. i'm hoping this changes soon. because a recent let down is killing me, and its probably all because of my own fault. which makes it even worse.
its not that i like to chase what i can't have....but i seem to chase it away. what the fuck is wrong with me. seriously have some sort of mental blockade when it comes to showing emotion towards anyone. i've probably met the love of my life and acted like a complete bitch towards them and don't even know it. its either i'm getting too much attention or i'm not getting enough from anyone that i ever meet. do i have the fucking problem...or am i just meeting all the wrong people for the past two years of being single.
being single and wild seems to work for me....
but i want a relationship at this point, too.
i need a guy who can actually keep up with me. who can fucking hang, and drink, and not give a fuck. someone who isn't afraid to get crazy and take risks. someone who i can randomly say "hey, lets drive across the country. right now. and will actually do it. if you're a fucking pussy, heads up...i'm not going to like you. if all you care about is having the biggest plasma flat screen in town and every video game system known to man kind....i won't be impressed. i need someone real. i need someone who just doesn't give a fuck and is always up for anything. i need someone with their own personality, and their own life. i need someone who can carry on an intelligent conversation and actually has some sort of interesting outlook on life. i need someone spontaneous.
does this exist?
FUCK.
pittsburgh can suck my dick right now. all i need is to go the fuck home and be around some new people and scenery and buy cheap cigs and see my family and friends.
six days heather...six days.
i have to work tonight, i don't want to go :-(
wow...sorry about being miss negativity. i hate that shit.
just had to rant.
hope everything is peachy out there in SGland
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mastad0ninfantry:
don't fucking move. we need to keep some neat-o people here in pgh. like you said, its highly lacking already
bountyhunter:
Its ok that you vented. I do all the time online because its easier than pissing off a friend over the phone or when hanging out. I know I probably don't really catch your eye as a sexy guy, but if you wanted to make a new friend, I can get you into some bars or get some beer/boose and movies and hang out.