So yesterday I came home from work in so much pain that I took 2 percocet and passed out. Stupid lady parts. I woke up to sounds coming from downstairs. And the dogs freaking out. Guess who came to get his stuff with our friend (his friend now) and a UHaul? Yep that would be River. No text message. No nothing. He didn't think I would be home and he just wanted to get his stuff. I gave him his guitars, he walked the dogs cus I was in pain and pretty much walked out. Apparently we have nothing to talk about, dating is going really well for him, the sex is good and all my friends met her last week. Salt in the wound. Needless to say I cried for hours, HOURS. And I took a shower and I cut... my legs hurt today but I needed to cut.
His stuff is gone. All gone. It's official. He won't talk to me anymore. It's as if the last 7 years didn't happen. Pain and anger have changed him into someone unrecognizable. One day he will come to his senses. He's living it up like he should have in his early 20's instead of becoming so committed to me and us. Let him enjoy it. If it's meant to be then it will be. Until then I'm going to be single FOREVER cus I can't even fathom the idea of another relationship or even being touched right now.
I have to fix me. I am prettier than his new gf. She is not attractive. She has qualities like me, the glasses, the longer hair, the white thing... but I'm so much prettier and so his type. She is not. It will get old quickly cus right now she is just trying to be everything he wants (me). Even our friends told me I'm prettier. That makes me feel better. So I can't date until I find a person way more attractive. Which will be hard... cus River is beautiful. Good job on that one kt. Good fucking job. Oh well. This is the way it is meant to be. So now to work on myself. And I have a lot of baggage and 4-legged children. There's a lot to me, so no one's gonna want to date me anyways. I have had offers for sex though LOL. At least I know I can get laid if need be.
And done. If you are in NYC on Sunday the 14th and want to come to the Benefit show my school (me and my student council) are putting on and help me raise money for sickle cell then come support!!! 314 W. 54th Street The Chernuchin Theater. No stalkers please hahahhaa
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His stuff is gone. All gone. It's official. He won't talk to me anymore. It's as if the last 7 years didn't happen. Pain and anger have changed him into someone unrecognizable. One day he will come to his senses. He's living it up like he should have in his early 20's instead of becoming so committed to me and us. Let him enjoy it. If it's meant to be then it will be. Until then I'm going to be single FOREVER cus I can't even fathom the idea of another relationship or even being touched right now.
I have to fix me. I am prettier than his new gf. She is not attractive. She has qualities like me, the glasses, the longer hair, the white thing... but I'm so much prettier and so his type. She is not. It will get old quickly cus right now she is just trying to be everything he wants (me). Even our friends told me I'm prettier. That makes me feel better. So I can't date until I find a person way more attractive. Which will be hard... cus River is beautiful. Good job on that one kt. Good fucking job. Oh well. This is the way it is meant to be. So now to work on myself. And I have a lot of baggage and 4-legged children. There's a lot to me, so no one's gonna want to date me anyways. I have had offers for sex though LOL. At least I know I can get laid if need be.
And done. If you are in NYC on Sunday the 14th and want to come to the Benefit show my school (me and my student council) are putting on and help me raise money for sickle cell then come support!!! 314 W. 54th Street The Chernuchin Theater. No stalkers please hahahhaa
Love Love Love
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fatkidlovescake:
no stalkers...than i guess i'm not invited...
only1doc:
Thanks Darlin. Oh and for the record I would date you