Yesterday afternoon I went to see the tattoo man. He had the drawing all done up. I almost started crying. It's beautiful. I didn't take pictures of it - cus he doesn't really let people do that, which is fine with me. It's really large, we held it up to make sure the proportions were okay. And it was convenient that I was wearing a dress that showed off my chest hahaha. So the horseshoe will be very prominent and will not be disturbed by my cleavage so it won't get a weird look. The flowers will actually be on my boobs. I think I might be worried about that. There are lots of flowers... I need to talk to him about how it will work with the connecting piece.
I woke up with the nerves and with second thoughts. It is the largest piece I have ever done and it will be on me FOREVER! But it's worth it. It's for Uncle Wayne and that's worth it.
Last night went well until the text message conversation that led to me crying. And it wasn't worth it and I should have known. And gay jesus is mad at me for blaming myself when i should blame the person that turned into a douche. And he did. He really did. And anyone that tells me "I have no intention of changing my plans" really puts where I stand into perspective. When napping is more important than following through on your words - that's a fucking problem. I accept that I was stupid and put faith in a person that I shouldn't have. As gay jesus said I seem to attract unavailable people into my life. Which is usually fine because I don't put any stock in it and so it isn't an issue. This has become an issue. A big issue. And it needs to stop. And it will. Everything happens for a reason. I'm learning lessons!
OMG... my chest is going to hurt tonight! Who wants to cuddle? I really want to be in bed, cuddled in blankets and watching movies. You're welcome to join me - yes you!
say goodbye to this....
sometimes i'm a little punk rock... and a little bit girly.
I woke up with the nerves and with second thoughts. It is the largest piece I have ever done and it will be on me FOREVER! But it's worth it. It's for Uncle Wayne and that's worth it.
Last night went well until the text message conversation that led to me crying. And it wasn't worth it and I should have known. And gay jesus is mad at me for blaming myself when i should blame the person that turned into a douche. And he did. He really did. And anyone that tells me "I have no intention of changing my plans" really puts where I stand into perspective. When napping is more important than following through on your words - that's a fucking problem. I accept that I was stupid and put faith in a person that I shouldn't have. As gay jesus said I seem to attract unavailable people into my life. Which is usually fine because I don't put any stock in it and so it isn't an issue. This has become an issue. A big issue. And it needs to stop. And it will. Everything happens for a reason. I'm learning lessons!
OMG... my chest is going to hurt tonight! Who wants to cuddle? I really want to be in bed, cuddled in blankets and watching movies. You're welcome to join me - yes you!
say goodbye to this....
sometimes i'm a little punk rock... and a little bit girly.
kryptik:
can't wait to see the finished product! you have such a blank canvas, it should be awesome. 
only1doc:
waiting on eggshells to see it. would cuddle with ya but I'm all the way across the country. Keep positive darlin.