So tomorrow will be 6 months. I have been crying a lot recently. I start and then I stop myself, which is not good. Next week will be his birthday. Since my boss doesn't want my negativity, I'm going to sleep in and watch movies all day. Maybe John Wayne one's cus he loved John Wayne. I'm fucking depressed.
Anyways... tattoo since my lovely and beautiful friend asked lots of questions, let me give you details.
There is no date yet, sometime in the next couple weeks - he is drawing it up right now and then we will finalize it and then I shall put it on me forever and ever.
The center of the whole piece will be a horseshoe (Uncle Wayne was a farrier, blacksmith and butcher) so I find the horseshoe fitting. I have never been one for flowers or very girly but the horseshoe will probably sit on a bed of peonies and there will be dogwoods around the sides of it. These are flowers that bloom at the beginning of spring on the farm and mean a lot to me. They started blooming a week after he died... so they will be included. The tattoo will say "Uncle Wayne" and have his birthday 9.21.54 and the death date 3.15.10. I am leaving their incorporation up to the tattoo artist. I also want to include a horse head or something and he has an idea for that - but this part is later on.
The tattoo for grampa comes from a christmas card he sent me years ago. It was the first time he ever wrote "love you" and I kept it. It will have to be modified because it is all shades of green, blue, white and yellow but it will be beautiful and go down my left arm. Connecting the two pieces will be a bunch of daffodils - which are my favorite flowers and they also bloom at the farm and no matter where I am when I first see them I think immediately of grampa and Uncle Wayne. And the number 71 will be included somehow too cus that is the number to the house.
It will eventually be a ginormous piece that will mean a lot to me and be full of love. I just can't believe that at any moment I could be without both of them. I would give anything for just one more day with Uncle Wayne. Just one more day.
School is super busy... not classes... just Student Council. But I do love most moments of it.
Tattooed is slowly but surely fading into the background of life. I have realized that he is only meant to be a brief part of my life and now that has passed. Live and learn.
I'm starting to come to conclusions about friendships I have made here and in real life as well, and well I will slowly be disintegrating those as well. Not cus I'm a bitch but cus I just don't need some people in my life.
Thank you for the love everyone. Much appreciated!
xoxoox
Anyways... tattoo since my lovely and beautiful friend asked lots of questions, let me give you details.
There is no date yet, sometime in the next couple weeks - he is drawing it up right now and then we will finalize it and then I shall put it on me forever and ever.
The center of the whole piece will be a horseshoe (Uncle Wayne was a farrier, blacksmith and butcher) so I find the horseshoe fitting. I have never been one for flowers or very girly but the horseshoe will probably sit on a bed of peonies and there will be dogwoods around the sides of it. These are flowers that bloom at the beginning of spring on the farm and mean a lot to me. They started blooming a week after he died... so they will be included. The tattoo will say "Uncle Wayne" and have his birthday 9.21.54 and the death date 3.15.10. I am leaving their incorporation up to the tattoo artist. I also want to include a horse head or something and he has an idea for that - but this part is later on.
The tattoo for grampa comes from a christmas card he sent me years ago. It was the first time he ever wrote "love you" and I kept it. It will have to be modified because it is all shades of green, blue, white and yellow but it will be beautiful and go down my left arm. Connecting the two pieces will be a bunch of daffodils - which are my favorite flowers and they also bloom at the farm and no matter where I am when I first see them I think immediately of grampa and Uncle Wayne. And the number 71 will be included somehow too cus that is the number to the house.
It will eventually be a ginormous piece that will mean a lot to me and be full of love. I just can't believe that at any moment I could be without both of them. I would give anything for just one more day with Uncle Wayne. Just one more day.
School is super busy... not classes... just Student Council. But I do love most moments of it.
Tattooed is slowly but surely fading into the background of life. I have realized that he is only meant to be a brief part of my life and now that has passed. Live and learn.
I'm starting to come to conclusions about friendships I have made here and in real life as well, and well I will slowly be disintegrating those as well. Not cus I'm a bitch but cus I just don't need some people in my life.
Thank you for the love everyone. Much appreciated!
xoxoox
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Yeah. That's what's up.