A ticket to Goo Goo Dolls... check.
Tickets to 2 Bayside shows... check.
Ticket to a 3rd Bayside show... to be bought tomorrow.
Ticket to Anberlin... to be bought shortly.
Alkaline Trio announcing fall tour dates soon... tickets to be bought.
Further Seems Forever back together with Chris Carrabba with a tour in Spring 2011... tickets will be bought.
A very happy HarleyQuinne when it comes to music... yes.
Now today I went to the gyn doc. I left crying. All my tests came back normal, which is what happens when you have endo. So now they want me to see a psychiatrist to rule out emotional causes. I see someone now... the pain has not changed. So since the labs come back normal, ultrasounds come back normal, pain meds barely help, hormones don't help (and I refuse to go back on them), apparently the next logical step is an hysterectomy. I hate doctors. I fucking hate western medicine docs.
I don't feel good. I have been in a lot of pain recently and now I just feel sick. And I'm having some sort of weird gluten reaction. As long as this all happens before next Tuesday, cus the next 15 weeks are going to be ROUGH.
I had an epiphany this morning, helped in part by the gay Jesus in my life. I have to give tattooed credit for sticking around. I have to realize that he has been around for 3 months. (I'm fighting a good portion of this epiphany but some of it makes sense) He still responds to me, still says things that are indicative of good things - but I am also a very strong person. Not everyone is as strong or confident (in the words of gay Jesus) as I am. And I have to realize that and accept it. And take it at whatever pace is necessary. Which I'm doing - cus really and truly the next 15 weeks of my life are going to be a CLUSTERFUCK.
Anyways...
xoxoxoxo
Tickets to 2 Bayside shows... check.
Ticket to a 3rd Bayside show... to be bought tomorrow.
Ticket to Anberlin... to be bought shortly.
Alkaline Trio announcing fall tour dates soon... tickets to be bought.
Further Seems Forever back together with Chris Carrabba with a tour in Spring 2011... tickets will be bought.
A very happy HarleyQuinne when it comes to music... yes.
Now today I went to the gyn doc. I left crying. All my tests came back normal, which is what happens when you have endo. So now they want me to see a psychiatrist to rule out emotional causes. I see someone now... the pain has not changed. So since the labs come back normal, ultrasounds come back normal, pain meds barely help, hormones don't help (and I refuse to go back on them), apparently the next logical step is an hysterectomy. I hate doctors. I fucking hate western medicine docs.
I don't feel good. I have been in a lot of pain recently and now I just feel sick. And I'm having some sort of weird gluten reaction. As long as this all happens before next Tuesday, cus the next 15 weeks are going to be ROUGH.
I had an epiphany this morning, helped in part by the gay Jesus in my life. I have to give tattooed credit for sticking around. I have to realize that he has been around for 3 months. (I'm fighting a good portion of this epiphany but some of it makes sense) He still responds to me, still says things that are indicative of good things - but I am also a very strong person. Not everyone is as strong or confident (in the words of gay Jesus) as I am. And I have to realize that and accept it. And take it at whatever pace is necessary. Which I'm doing - cus really and truly the next 15 weeks of my life are going to be a CLUSTERFUCK.
Anyways...
xoxoxoxo
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coltoncasanova:
well then lets do it! 
itsonlyyourlife:
A friend of mine had all sorts of problems with pain...then she cut out gluten and they magically disappeared. It's worth a shot!