rexall

i really was thisclose to going to the emergency room last night... but really what will they do? give me painkillers (which are always welcome during the first few days of my period) and then send me home when the pain is under control. i have ultrasounds on thursday and a doc appt next week. i will make sure to get something then.
my abdomen is KILLING ME. and i'm at work and then have to go to school for a meeting. i REALLY want to go back to bed.

i got out of bed yesterday for work. that was it. came home, showered again and went right back into bed. finished a whole book yesterday. didn't turn on the tv, didn't turn on the computer - just laid in bed with the pups and a book. and cried when the pain hit really bad.

i want boys like the ones in my stupid senseless books (not romance novels, cus those make me a bit ill). just a boy like you see in all those stupid movies too that make you hate your relationships. the men that don't really exist anywhere. i want a grand gesture. maybe one day.

please, someone put me out of my misery. it's not right to be in this much pain.