rexall

i have decided to delete smitten from all my social networking thingies. i did not realize he was all over everything. i said something stupid the other night and hurt his feelings. which in turn led him to stop talking to me for days. i don't take kindly to crap like that. i don't need to feel like an asshole for someone who wants to play distant. doubt he will even notice. trying not to care. trying really hard. my friend said to just wait it out and not be hasty. i'm tired of unresponsive bullshit. i'm good enough to be chased... so here i am. i don't expect him to come and make any attempt. so i'm picking my heart up and moving on. really gotta pay attention to school. that's so much more important. way more important. but his eyes were so pretty.... sigh.

i have spent most of the weekend in bed. extreme pain led to extreme nausea. like couldn't stand up it was so bad. and lots of painkillers and no food didn't help. but so nauseous i couldn't eat. it is a vicious cycle. now i am sitting in the big comfy couch in the living room, watching the world cup (yeah Germany!! let's go Argentina!!), working on my anatomy3 midterm study guide for tomorrow morning's test and hanging with Grampa. who gave me quite the scare this morning by taking a pretty nasty fall.

i really hope out of sight, out of mind works. cus so far i'm just sad.