moment of weakness. stupid me. lesson learned. i am sorry. this whole guy thing really makes me want to leave this place for awhile. it really does. and the friendship will probably end on here and then my heart will hurt more. close down. shut in.
i know things will get better but right now i need to embrace the fact that i am miserable,...
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i have never applied for unemployment. that was surreal. i am angry. i am sad. i am trying to stay away from the thoughts that make me do bad things.
let's add on top of all this i'm stupid. just plain stupid. over a guy. i mean really? come now lady cakes, you've never even met him. STUPID KT. STUPID.
this is all just a...
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let's add on top of all this i'm stupid. just plain stupid. over a guy. i mean really? come now lady cakes, you've never even met him. STUPID KT. STUPID.
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damagedi:
It's all fish and running water... you can do just keep your head up
infinity:
Sorry to hear about you losing your job.
I was none too pleased when I found I was laid off from my job earlier this year but in retrospect that was the best thing that could have happened (even though I ended up finding out I couldn't collect unemployment because I didn't work enough). Career and work wise things can be really disappointing and hurtful at the time but later on it ends up being for the best. It sounds stupid but it has proven true time and time again.
The only thing you can do is just keep going and do the best that you can...but for the next few days to weeks you should think about taking some time off, then snapping into action.
Sorry to hear about you losing your job.
I was none too pleased when I found I was laid off from my job earlier this year but in retrospect that was the best thing that could have happened (even though I ended up finding out I couldn't collect unemployment because I didn't work enough). Career and work wise things can be really disappointing and hurtful at the time but later on it ends up being for the best. It sounds stupid but it has proven true time and time again.
The only thing you can do is just keep going and do the best that you can...but for the next few days to weeks you should think about taking some time off, then snapping into action.
OkCupid is fucking hysterical. My friends have joined it so of course I wanted to see it. I would really like to see what OkCupid thinks my "ideal" match is. And those questions... I can't stop answering them cus they are fucking hysterical. Oh man. Gay Jesus and I created profiles yesterday and we just keep giggling and sending each other the questions we get....
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damagedi:
Get that bite seen too ASAP, dog bites are serious. You don't want to loose the foot. Chances are you need antibiotics to take care of any infection
priam:
OKC is always fun 
Enough of that blog. I can't make anyone want me in their life. So what will be shall be.
Know what happens when you try to get your old man dog out of the puppy bowl? You get teeth sunk into your foot and a bloody mess. And then you put some bacitracin on and some gauze and get your ass to school for 16...
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Know what happens when you try to get your old man dog out of the puppy bowl? You get teeth sunk into your foot and a bloody mess. And then you put some bacitracin on and some gauze and get your ass to school for 16...
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chrysis:
I just tried to look and find you on a map, but the only map that had your a.] your whole state, b.] your city pointed out, and c.] both of those things in relation to [new] me, didn't have the states labeled and I actually just don't know what any of the states are. LOL. So I actually don't know .. ummm.
.. anything, after that exercise. ;D
.. anything, after that exercise. ;D
the_swill:
I'm interested in making out with you. Oh, you said make it up to you. Sorry.
I cry over a boy that lives across the world. My heart hurts for him. And it all went to shit in a flash. It was so good. Then it was so bad. I would give anything to fix it. I have this pile of crap I bought and put together for care packages and it stares at me. I am stupid for letting things...
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thegutterpunk:
never give up on someone you think about daily...does this include hourly?
thegutterpunk:
yeah...it's pretty constant for me too...i'm fed up with constantly wondering what she's doing and feeling miserable.
so...i decided to contact her next week. i just miss her friendship. that is all i have to offer due to our circumstances, but you're right. i cant give up on someone i think of constantly...so thank you for that
so...i decided to contact her next week. i just miss her friendship. that is all i have to offer due to our circumstances, but you're right. i cant give up on someone i think of constantly...so thank you for that
Pretty much sums up the feelings for Australia. What a melodrama. He will miss me. And maybe I'll be around if he wants me in his life. I feel like shit about everything that happened but there's nothing I can do now. I don't think he was amused with my defining the words: friend, honesty and assumptions for him. HAHAHA
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thegutterpunk:
we are mental.....Australias loss will be some other guys gain!!
tuuuunes as well!!
soooo looking forward to Damnesia coming out.
hope you're well and happy
tuuuunes as well!!
soooo looking forward to Damnesia coming out.
hope you're well and happy
infinity:
Needle in the spine =
I'm going to try and make it to the show on Sunday, hopefully I'll be able to get enough studying done to be able to go. My pharmacy law exam is next Thursday and so far I haven't been able to study as much as I would have wanted to.
I'm going to try and make it to the show on Sunday, hopefully I'll be able to get enough studying done to be able to go. My pharmacy law exam is next Thursday and so far I haven't been able to study as much as I would have wanted to.
This is going to be fucking random and all over the place. Enjoy.
I made these CD's to mail to Australia in a fit of putting fun stuff together for care packages. So when the shit hit the ceiling I decided to put them in my car and listen to them. Besides my friends talking about how fucking random I am... here are some of...
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I made these CD's to mail to Australia in a fit of putting fun stuff together for care packages. So when the shit hit the ceiling I decided to put them in my car and listen to them. Besides my friends talking about how fucking random I am... here are some of...
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thegutterpunk:
thanks...i'm just gonna try and sleep it out!
thegutterpunk:
it's so hot and humid here i can't help but do that!
i wonder if he thinks about me as much as i think about him. but i'm doing well - no contact. i have this belief that if someone wants to talk to you then they will. so obviously i am not wanted. but that is not surprising LOL
i promise pictures tonight.
made my schedule for next semester. it was nice knowing you. 6 or...
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i promise pictures tonight.
made my schedule for next semester. it was nice knowing you. 6 or...
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kay:
Hang in there you.
a_nonanimal:
Exes are no fun... I had that same feeling for a very very long time... then time goes by and you look back and think... wtf was i thinking!
Hope you are feeling better!
Hope you are feeling better!
i ran around in nothing but lingerie for an hour and a half last night to the hoot and hollers of a really awesome crowd of people. there was a lot of my ass and boobs on display. it was a damn good time! completely nerve wracking but i want to do it again! so hopefully i will get the chance!!
then i was at...
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williamnot:
sometimes going in with the expectation of hurting someone is a good way to be proven wrong.
pictures you say?
pictures you say?
acanthostega:
Sounds like a great time!! Excited for the photos.
i have photos just haven't had time to put them in my computer. so maybe later.
so i got this email from the school of burlesque about the student showcase coming up this saturday and it was basically a call to action - performers, tassel twirlers, kittens needed. so i totally said i would kitten - but i got beat out by someone else. so...
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so i got this email from the school of burlesque about the student showcase coming up this saturday and it was basically a call to action - performers, tassel twirlers, kittens needed. so i totally said i would kitten - but i got beat out by someone else. so...
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infinity:
I'm sure the show will go well. I could see why you'd have stage fright at first, but if you can calm yourself a bit and just act like yourself things will go awesomely.
I still can't think of any decent burlesque names so I vote for Crimson Riot. If all else fails you could always borrow the name of one of your favorite SG's.
I still can't think of any decent burlesque names so I vote for Crimson Riot. If all else fails you could always borrow the name of one of your favorite SG's.
priam:
Thnaks for the birthday wishes
Sadie Sin sounds good
Sadie Sin sounds good
Things to look forward to:
Being done with midterms
More ink, LOTS more ink.
Burlesque shows
Burlesque classes
Hearing the Bouncing Souls perform "How I spent my summer vacation" and "Anchors Aweigh" in their entirety on July 8
Watching Anthony Raneri of Bayside perform on July 9
Turning 29 on July 10 - a day that already consists of a burlesque class, a meeting at...
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Being done with midterms
More ink, LOTS more ink.
Burlesque shows
Burlesque classes
Hearing the Bouncing Souls perform "How I spent my summer vacation" and "Anchors Aweigh" in their entirety on July 8
Watching Anthony Raneri of Bayside perform on July 9
Turning 29 on July 10 - a day that already consists of a burlesque class, a meeting at...
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skullgrid:
oh i was sure. people are just fickle. such is life
tetrisbrokeme:
still on top of it i hope!
my heart is heavy. my stomach is in knots. and yet my head is clear. the first few days will suck. i will fight the urge to contact. but tis for the best.
i think my pheromones are in overdrive or something. since saturday night i have been hit on non-stop. it's kind of funny, very flattering and bit crazy. but it makes me smile....
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i think my pheromones are in overdrive or something. since saturday night i have been hit on non-stop. it's kind of funny, very flattering and bit crazy. but it makes me smile....
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triumphretro:
Good. You completely deserve it. If you were in Arizona I would hit on you all the time.
friscillating:
pheromones ... so insanely powerful ... that must be quite fun.
Breaking contact is the hardest thing. you can do it.
Breaking contact is the hardest thing. you can do it.
/hugs