So once my car is fixed I think I'll be okay. Being stuck in this house relying on other people for rides and them needing to know where I am 24/7 makes me feel like a child again. I used to have my own house. I used to do things and have friends. I used to be good enough for my "lover". And now. I sit in my P.J.'s waiting for comments on my blogs. That's a bit ridiculous. What's more ridiculous is I look forward to going to work. I'm excited to get out of the house and be where I usually hate to be. Never thought I'd hate work less than where I lay my head at night.
I need a routine. Then again having plans for my future, which I feel will never ever happen at the rate things are going, I need my partner to be on the same level. Yet he's too busy leveling a character that doesn't even exist in real life. I'd be content with doing things mysef so it will keep me busy, but then again what's the point? Aren't we supposed to do things together? :/ I'm just so stuck, confused, and lonely.
If I let him read this he would just get depressed. Because he already knows. He already knows what he's doing to me. to us. to himself. And still wont do anything about it.
I just need to kick him in the balls. lol.
Here's a neat picture I came across.
I need a routine. Then again having plans for my future, which I feel will never ever happen at the rate things are going, I need my partner to be on the same level. Yet he's too busy leveling a character that doesn't even exist in real life. I'd be content with doing things mysef so it will keep me busy, but then again what's the point? Aren't we supposed to do things together? :/ I'm just so stuck, confused, and lonely.
If I let him read this he would just get depressed. Because he already knows. He already knows what he's doing to me. to us. to himself. And still wont do anything about it.
I just need to kick him in the balls. lol.
Here's a neat picture I came across.
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You are super duper sexy by the way.
And I agree, I would prescribe a swift kick in the balls for him as well.
I know I've said it before and I know there's not much you can do without a good job and a car but, He's not worthy of you.
I went through exactly what you are going through for 3 years with my ex-husband. Wondering how I would pay the rent and get to work with out him but, needing him to give a shit about me more and his video games less. Being ignored and treated like I was some kind of freak for needing attention like I did.
I left. I tried the kick in the balls talks over and over. I threatened to leave him. Nothing worked. So, I left.
You will get it figured out eventually. Only you know what's right for you but, sometimes it helps to know somebody went through the same thing and got out just fine.