One thing I hate more than anything in this fucking world is being depressed.
Feeling worthless, useless, used, and getting nothing in return. Nothing but getting bitched at. Nothing but having to compete with videogames for attention. Then having nothing at all. A car, a phone, a home to call my own, friends, hobbies.
All I do is take pictures of myself. because I'm bored. But feeling worthless makes me feel utterly disgusting and hideous. No more pictures.
So then I'm stuck here with literally nothing to do.
And he wont even help me. He just tells me I'm crazy. Or a bitch for "nagging".
Why the fuck am I even trying anymore. To hang on to what I have? what is that? a meaningless relationship and a job that will get me no where.....
What sucks more than anything is how much I fucking love him and that doesn't even matter most of the time.
Days like these, practically every day, I just want to shrivel into a ball and wither away.
I even wrote him a poem....
Feeling worthless, useless, used, and getting nothing in return. Nothing but getting bitched at. Nothing but having to compete with videogames for attention. Then having nothing at all. A car, a phone, a home to call my own, friends, hobbies.
All I do is take pictures of myself. because I'm bored. But feeling worthless makes me feel utterly disgusting and hideous. No more pictures.
So then I'm stuck here with literally nothing to do.
And he wont even help me. He just tells me I'm crazy. Or a bitch for "nagging".
Why the fuck am I even trying anymore. To hang on to what I have? what is that? a meaningless relationship and a job that will get me no where.....
What sucks more than anything is how much I fucking love him and that doesn't even matter most of the time.
Days like these, practically every day, I just want to shrivel into a ball and wither away.
I even wrote him a poem....
What good is that? I have too much love in me, wanting to give it to one person who wont even accept it.
Hey, I think I just exceeded the lowest level of being pathetic.
DING!
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revkain:
Listen here, if he is not doing his part then here is what you do. CHANGE your LIFE to make you HAPPY no matter what. Yes you love him but if he does not share the same love then you know what to do. I have been there before myself and yes it hurts but that will pass over time, but when UNHAPPY first thing to do it talk and if they show no interest or just bitch about it then the next step is to do what will make you happy in the long run. Remember you may live in the present but must look ahead and see if it will change for better or get worse. Just remember I am here if you wish to talk. I'll listen and give you my opinion on what I would do if you want it. Take care of you self and remember you are a very beautiful, sexy and strong minded woman. Do not let anybody make you think otherwise.
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