That Reuben. What a bitch, huh.
This is the kind of feeling that could be considered as a character flaw.
I'm struggling a bit lately.
Struggling with people.
Struggling with money.
Struggling with myself, really....
It's nothing I wont handle. It just makes things difficult.
The weather is sporadically getting better though... and that does me the world of good.
It's been beautiful outside this week. I like having the windows open. I like not having to wear a million layers. I like the feel of fresh air on skin, and the smell of the spring.
I miss the feeling of skin on skin.
Life throws you lifelines when you least expect it.
Things that keep you afloat. Reasons to smile.
Ive been smiling, and not drowning. Something is happening, though Im not sure what I do with it. Its the sort of thing I had become accustomed to running from. People. But those smiles are more and more frequent so Im trying to stay put.
To be honest. It's not even taking all that much trying.
It's the sort of thing the gives me butterflies.
As chatters, we lost one of our own recently.
melaniek was so very wonderful and beautiful and sarcastic and loving and funny. And stong. So strong.
Seeing people pull together, to comfort each other and share memories of her gave me back some of my love for chat. The hardest thing was seeing people hurting, and not be able to physically comfort them.
I had been feeling somewhat jaded by the whole chat thing lately. But it reminded me that as a result of chat I have some of the most amazing people in my life, that I could ever have asked for.
I guess you can't fault that.
This is the kind of feeling that could be considered as a character flaw.
I'm struggling a bit lately.
Struggling with people.
Struggling with money.
Struggling with myself, really....
It's nothing I wont handle. It just makes things difficult.
The weather is sporadically getting better though... and that does me the world of good.
It's been beautiful outside this week. I like having the windows open. I like not having to wear a million layers. I like the feel of fresh air on skin, and the smell of the spring.
I miss the feeling of skin on skin.
Life throws you lifelines when you least expect it.
Things that keep you afloat. Reasons to smile.
Ive been smiling, and not drowning. Something is happening, though Im not sure what I do with it. Its the sort of thing I had become accustomed to running from. People. But those smiles are more and more frequent so Im trying to stay put.
To be honest. It's not even taking all that much trying.
It's the sort of thing the gives me butterflies.
As chatters, we lost one of our own recently.
melaniek was so very wonderful and beautiful and sarcastic and loving and funny. And stong. So strong.
Seeing people pull together, to comfort each other and share memories of her gave me back some of my love for chat. The hardest thing was seeing people hurting, and not be able to physically comfort them.
I had been feeling somewhat jaded by the whole chat thing lately. But it reminded me that as a result of chat I have some of the most amazing people in my life, that I could ever have asked for.
I guess you can't fault that.
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zach_:
ur gay and i hate ur new boyfriend
dwam:
I'm quite excited too to work on Saiylor's pics too but we'll have to be a little patient considering her last set that eventually hit the frontpage !