repus

so, this is it, finally! i'm going to be dedicating more time to writing words, music, life, etc. the gibberish that will ensue will be equally bad and great, so please bear with me, and offer constructive criticism if you possess that skill. my life is a mess and i feel like i am unraveling one thread at a time, though i wonder how much...
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so i am almost finished up with physical therapy. i am feeling a major difference in my body strength. my core has gotten a lot stronger, and so has my lower back. my depression still comes in waves, but as long as i am either busy or with company, then i am usually fine. it's the idle time time that kills me, but then again,...
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there's a sickness inside of me, tearing away
at the boredom and pain i feel everyday...

random lyrics i'll do something with if i can find the will to muster up the time and energy necessary to elaborate on it properly. i've been in and out of the darkness lately. got some bad toys with even worse intentions, and all they have left me with...
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Its strangely familiar how life seems to follow the cycles of life, in general, like the seasons of the calendar year. During a certain time each year, the sun sets much earlier, and it stays dark for longer periods. Ironically, this seems to be time of year that parts of nature are either dying, or doing whatever they have to do to preserve life itself,...
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high everybody, sorry i haven't been around so much lately, but i have a couple of valid excuses/reasons...:

1. i don't pay for internet access; i pirate a wireless signal that seems to be off more than on, but more importantly...

2. my outsides feel like they are being sucked inside a hole in my soul. idle time is the devil's plaything, and i've had...
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high everybody...! my visit home to dullass, texass was pretty good. i mean, i did want to be back home after a few days, but who wouldn't miss maui... anyways, i got to surprise the hell out of my family and a good amount of friends, 3 of which i hadn't seen in about 15 years; many of them had kids, some multiple, heh...! i...
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so i've been away for a bit, and i apologize. i've been doing things like moving, dealing with doctors, lawyers and insurance companies and trying to find adequate work. things are moving in the right direction, so i decided that if i didn't go home to visit right now, then i wouldn't be able to for almost another year. plus, since its been 15 months...
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one of the things that sucks the most about living in paradise is that most people are very transient, so even though new people are moving here constantly, my friends are leaving just as frequently. it's really hard to lose things once you have had them, as opposed to never having them to begin with, because then you really know what your missing. my buddy,...
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so, i got a letter in the mail that says the state of hawaii finds the maui brewing company is liable for my back injuy. this is good news because even though it is the truth, the owner of the company was trying his best to get out of this responsibility because he's a piece of shit that considers all of his employees to be...
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so i had my first, and hopefully last, hearing date for my workers comp case. it definitely seemed to go in my favor, which it should, and the formal decision will be mailed out within 2 months, so i get to wait a lil bit longer. at that point, both parties have 20 days to appeal that decision, if they don't agree with the terms....
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so i had a nice extended weekend, which is exactly what i needed. my friend, murph, had some visitors that we got to entertain for a few days. his sister, amanda, and her friend, jenny, were here for 5 days, which is never enough time, but we made it work.

we left my place around noon on thursday for a lil camping excursion in hana....
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