rephrased

So I made a New Year's resolution: No more drinking.

See, I'm on these antidepressants, and the label says, "do not drink alcohol while on this medication". But my doctor was like, "well, it affects everyone differently. Try it and see how you feel. It will probably just make you get drunk faster." And I tried it and got drunk at the same rate. So "Hooray! I'm immune!"

But eventually I realized that when I go out, I get really sad. Then I stay really sad for like three-four days. Not like normal, "boo hoo, I'm drunk but still too shy to talk to women" sad. More like the seriously suicidal sort of sad. And it occurred to me what happens when I drink. I don't get drunker, but it switches off my meds. And that's not healthy. So no more booze.

Worse yet, evidently this has really bad interactions with pot. Last person my doctor had who smoked pot on these meds had a literal psychotic reaction and tried to kill people. I don't smoke, but this means thst I can't switch over. But on the upside, I'm planning on quitting the meds before I go on the trail. I don't know what I'll have for insurance, and the perscription refills would just be too much of a headache. So... um... yeah, I can't think of how to end this entry gracefully.