Hello all,....well at least hello Smythe, you are the only one I know for sure that reads my blog.....thanks.
Today kinda sucked. My job was okay...I had a long route and drove 400 or so miles.....its just ive kinda been in a funk since saturday. I cant seem to get over my dissapointment with my family over my b day. That and a lot of other stuff too. Its sad when I havent really wanted to go home at the end of the day to my wife in almost 10 years.
Im just not excited to go home to her. It just feels like going home to a room mate that I kinda like, but not really have much in common with anymore.....no bad feelings.....i just want to go home and go to bed. or sit up and watch tv half the night. I mean I had this wonderful picture in my head when I said "I do"....and so far my life has not matched the picture.
I dont want outrageous things.........just the simple things that lead to a good match and a solid foundation for a lasting marrage.
I dont know what Im going to do.. I cant just push all this misery deep inside anymore. Its beginning to take its toll on my health.
Im just trapped.
18 more years and my kids are grown...then maybe I can leave.
that is if im still heathy enough..........
Im going to stop my self right now...no body wants to get a eye ful of shit so im just going to end on a high note..................I get my computer stand for my van on monday............
yahhh.........mobile computing on the road............
Ill be able to take road video........and stay up to date on SG
later guys
Today kinda sucked. My job was okay...I had a long route and drove 400 or so miles.....its just ive kinda been in a funk since saturday. I cant seem to get over my dissapointment with my family over my b day. That and a lot of other stuff too. Its sad when I havent really wanted to go home at the end of the day to my wife in almost 10 years.
Im just not excited to go home to her. It just feels like going home to a room mate that I kinda like, but not really have much in common with anymore.....no bad feelings.....i just want to go home and go to bed. or sit up and watch tv half the night. I mean I had this wonderful picture in my head when I said "I do"....and so far my life has not matched the picture.
I dont want outrageous things.........just the simple things that lead to a good match and a solid foundation for a lasting marrage.
I dont know what Im going to do.. I cant just push all this misery deep inside anymore. Its beginning to take its toll on my health.
Im just trapped.
18 more years and my kids are grown...then maybe I can leave.
that is if im still heathy enough..........
Im going to stop my self right now...no body wants to get a eye ful of shit so im just going to end on a high note..................I get my computer stand for my van on monday............
yahhh.........mobile computing on the road............
Ill be able to take road video........and stay up to date on SG
later guys