repairmanc

Hi all,

Just as I suspected, today is my birthday, and its just like any other day. I have barely heard happy birthday from my family, no presents from anyone....not even a b day card from my wife. Not even a kiss today from my wife...definately no b day nookie or any other variation either.

Im not asking for a huge deal, I just thought the person I have been married to for the past 9 years might show just a little bit of affection or something.

May be just rent a movie I want to see once, and watcih it together on the couch,....but no.

Why did I think this year would be any different. Not even a plain cake like I asked for...nothing.

How much more fucking simple can I be or get....i just wanted a plain fucking cake for my day.

no big expensive dinner...a fucking 3 dollar 30 minute cake mix....

At least I see what my worth is to my significant other.

I thought the ones we marry are supposed to love us, adore us, and want to make us happy.???????

Even if its just one day out of the year.

And all Ih ave to look forward to is a life time of this.....
I feel so alone, depressed and generally not wanted.

I dont understand...every occasion I give cards...make cakes....rent movies...go out to dinner....
what ever I think would just scream I LOVE YOU.....

why, what did I do so wrong, why does my day just get passed over???

this is why I have decided to create my own world...its not very hard,...Im an only child....

I just retreat deeper and deeper inside myself......
will anyone ever be able to reach me...
or am i just alone.