repairmanc

Not much new to report...lost my health insurance...don't know what I'm going to do. But I still have hope. SIngle now and looking to start over...I wish I could meet someone...but its so hard now a day to meet anyone...why is that.


Later girls.

My first year alone, single I mean....and pennieless. I owe like 1700 hundred dollars for my health insurance....im diabetic who wears an insulin pump.....due before the 13 of Janurary...or it will get cancelled...and I cannot get it back.

So iif there are any angels left out there....HELP.....i have no money....no place to live execpt my parents one room....and no job....i had surgery and got fired....
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Hello all,

Im starting to clean out my parents spare room today, to better make room for me....looks like my temp. stay is turniing into a long term semi permentant staycation. But im tired of living out of garbage bags, so Im setting up camp better. Smythe, I wonder if its possible to love someone and never meet them.....whadda you think my flame haiired princess?...
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At this time of year, I am so glad for good friends, Smythe I count you as one of those....I hope you get all your heart desires this year for x-mas....

I know youve warmed mine.

Smythe you are my shinning star....no one eles can even compare to your brilliance.


May the blessing of the rain be on you
the soft sweet rain.
May it fall upon your spirit
so that all the little flowers may spring up,
and shed their sweetness on the air.
May the blessing of the great rains be on you,
may they beat upon your spirit...
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Guess nobody reads these things huh? Oh well, Hopefully Ill hear from some of ya aftr the holidays.....

Thanksgiving be to all,...and hope you all have a great turkey day.

Josh

Do not stand at my grave and weep,
I am not there... I do not sleep.
I am the thousand winds that blow...
I am the diamond glints on snow...
I am the sunlight...
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I am so just blah,....to know such love and happiness...but to also not be able to reach it....is as almost worse than never seeing it at all....now that Ive seen it...I know exactly what Ive been missing......

Help.

Im drowning.

I don't know what is worse, getting hurt by someone you thought loved you, or not being able to be with a person you know loves you.
Life is so upside down. Every person has that one girl or guy that you never try for....that you always dreamed of...the one that you know can undo you.
Well what if it turns out that that dream...
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Like life wasent hard enough right now,.....along comes this girl out of my past....Im talking about not just any girl...Im talking about the one I was always bestfriends with, the one that I never even held the hand of, the one that was so above everything that I would dream of her.
If that was just it,...I might be okay,...but no,....she has to tell me...
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I have this diary from my ex girl friend.....she totally used me,...but filled this diary with how much she loved me and how much she wanted to be with me..

Any Ideas of how to destroy this book of lies? I want it to be spectacular.....she fucked me so badly.....

Only the best send off for this book of shit....

talk to you girls later.......
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eh,...day has been okay, i talked to a long lost love.....said if i had acted sooner she would have been mine, but shes married now and is happy....

damn.....and this girl is so fine its not even funny.

But it lifts my spirits..lets me know that at least the girl i thought was outta my league....actually wanted me too.

Serendipity

Love ya all
joshua