I have to work in 8 hours about and i just got home from closing.
It's a part time job so it's not too bad. A short shift. I'll be closing again in a few days.
I still have some insomnia, with my body not letting sleep when I want so easily.
However, I'm finally in school! ^_^ It's one class right now so i don't get overwhelmed. 5/8 weeks down and we have to read the Hunger Games. It's a fun class, and the teacher is pretty funny. He seems stressed out lately so he's not as energetic as he could be.
As for any previous mentions of girl issues... I'm ... better off without that crazy chick who in some way used me. We were never together but she definitely had a hand in what happened between us. "He's not talking to me, he must be doing something wrong *block". Such amazing logic that one has.
So what's a guy aught to do with back pain, a part time job, and school to deal with? Of course though, I think about it, being lonely, it is not fun.
Speaking of which, it seems my "best friend" is still hanging out with the girl that broke my heart and gave me anxiety for a good while. Shamelessly, I would say in my opinion, taking photos with her and her friends. I kinda knew this would happen.
I need a new best friend that I can hang out with :c
It's tough, especially when you end up trying not to crush so hard on these girls that come and go with no appreciation of what's around them. Some of them too young to understand, some of them my age, and some from a mystery box that I don't know if I can encounter, so to speak.
My pen pal lives too far and we haven't met, but she's really shy about showing me her face, even though I was the one concerned about crushing on her. She is older... she is older, and wiser. She's helped me through this shebang. I'm grateful... so now I'm more knowledgeable of the situation I don't think it's necessary to worry about crushing on her since she is married to her girlfriend. She's really nice and I consider her my best friend who is about 13 years older.
I love that girl, she's given me much needed strength with her words, and has made me cry to be so happy I met her. Because she was so sincere and respecting, gratifying, and intelligible. I could never get that kind of respect and love from anyone in my life but her. I think she kind of admits that if things were different she'd actually have me around like that... which is nice but I know she belongs to someone and it wouldnt be right. Whatever, she shows enough affection with her words that it's comforting. I just wish ... maybe I don't... ah well. If I am going to remain unfortunate that way then, at least she was in my life, and not some girl who steps on other people's feelings without ever thinking they did something wrong. Ughhh...
Well... now I sit and wait for my body to tell me it's time to sleep. Hooray *sarcastically* insomnia