renard

finding out what I want to do for the rest of my life is really hard. too hard. this year I have been studying russian at the universiy here in Bergen, but I think I've found out universities are not for me.

so I've been thinking about what I want to do this fall. right now I'm leaning towards business-school here in Bergen, for either marketing or international marketing. if not, maybe some media thing or tv-production or something. I don't know. I know I need to go to a school I can use more of my imagination. just making scentences bore me, which makes me loose consentration, and then I'm fucked.

but how am I suppost to know? I'm just 20, I'm barely anything that remotely reminds of an adult. and now I'm suppost to make decisions that reflect the rest of my life? this sucks

I've also decided not to travel with my class to St. Petersburg in May. not only is it really expensive, but I have tons of stuff to do back home during the same period of time. I hope I don't regret not going, but the only reason I actually want to go is because I want to experience Russia. and I don't really like anyone in my class, and to make matters worse, the trip would include 5 hours of school every day. Russia actually borders to Norway, so it's actually way easier to get there then I ever thought. so I'll go some day with friends instead, and buy looooads of souveniers and russian crap haha. I love the russian crap

on another note, I went to the doctor today, and she thinks I might have an ulcer or something. we did some tests and I'll hear back after easter. I hope I don't have to go to the hospitol and get a camera shoved down my throat