Tonight's musical stylings are brought you courtesy of "A Girl, A Boy, A Graveyard", by Jeremy Messersmith.
So here I am, sitting in my bed, 1:30 in the morning, music playing off my laptop, eyelids struggling to stay up, and I just can't fall asleep. Okay, so can't is the wrong word choice here. It's more of an issue once again of I don't want to. I don't know why. I love sleep, as anyone who has read my posts before can attest to. And yet, once again, my mind simply won't let go of the reigns and embrace the night. Control freak, your name is my brain.
It's been several days since my last update here, but they were at least good days. One of my best friends Frank came to visit me from NYC, and it was a blast. We got to go to Wrigley Field and see the Cardinals take on the Cubs, though they did lose.
I was able to show him a bit more of the city that has become my phone and will continue to be so for the next 8 months. To make things even better, Taryn, a friend of mine who I haven't really talked to lately since we went on a date a month or so back, joined us for dinner Saturday night. And yes, I'm avoiding the issue of Taryn and I and the date. That's a story for another time....or never, whichever.
The past couple of posts I've been asking questions to all, and though I haven't really been getting answers via response comments, I am hoping that you are at least thinking over the question to yourself and mulling over the answer. That or just forgetting the question altogether and politely nodding along while reading this post. Either way, good for you.
This brings us to tonight's question, and it's a bit more of an abstract one, in light of me finally getting ready for that great job search, so here it is. Does our fear, fear of finding a job, fear of finding someone who cares for us, fear of not finding the one great cake pan before Great Aunt Mable comes to town, does that fear ever go away? Do we ever reach a point where most of life's mysteries are pretty much answered in relationship to us and start enjoying life in the moment, or are we always thinking ten steps ahead, in the great unknown, where anything can happen?
I know this question was a longer, more convoluted one, but it's something that I've been wondering about lately. Anyway, thoughts, questions, concerns, fears of another immaculate conception? I'm all ears.
"Nothing in life is to be feared. It is only to be understood."
-Marie Curie
Good night everyone, and may you understand your fears in these swiftly coming days.
So here I am, sitting in my bed, 1:30 in the morning, music playing off my laptop, eyelids struggling to stay up, and I just can't fall asleep. Okay, so can't is the wrong word choice here. It's more of an issue once again of I don't want to. I don't know why. I love sleep, as anyone who has read my posts before can attest to. And yet, once again, my mind simply won't let go of the reigns and embrace the night. Control freak, your name is my brain.
It's been several days since my last update here, but they were at least good days. One of my best friends Frank came to visit me from NYC, and it was a blast. We got to go to Wrigley Field and see the Cardinals take on the Cubs, though they did lose.
I was able to show him a bit more of the city that has become my phone and will continue to be so for the next 8 months. To make things even better, Taryn, a friend of mine who I haven't really talked to lately since we went on a date a month or so back, joined us for dinner Saturday night. And yes, I'm avoiding the issue of Taryn and I and the date. That's a story for another time....or never, whichever.
The past couple of posts I've been asking questions to all, and though I haven't really been getting answers via response comments, I am hoping that you are at least thinking over the question to yourself and mulling over the answer. That or just forgetting the question altogether and politely nodding along while reading this post. Either way, good for you.
This brings us to tonight's question, and it's a bit more of an abstract one, in light of me finally getting ready for that great job search, so here it is. Does our fear, fear of finding a job, fear of finding someone who cares for us, fear of not finding the one great cake pan before Great Aunt Mable comes to town, does that fear ever go away? Do we ever reach a point where most of life's mysteries are pretty much answered in relationship to us and start enjoying life in the moment, or are we always thinking ten steps ahead, in the great unknown, where anything can happen?
I know this question was a longer, more convoluted one, but it's something that I've been wondering about lately. Anyway, thoughts, questions, concerns, fears of another immaculate conception? I'm all ears.
"Nothing in life is to be feared. It is only to be understood."
-Marie Curie
Good night everyone, and may you understand your fears in these swiftly coming days.
jimcurt99:
Simple answer for a very complex question- No. At least for me, still lots of fear, but the older I get the less I let it control what I do. 