Tonight's post will be brought to you by the soundtrack of silence, interrupted solely by my inability to sleep.
So as you can probably guess from the opening line, I am being plagued once again by not being able to sleep. Truly, insomnia is a cruel mistress, who harsh words can only be matched by having your cholesterol tested after eating at KFC. And now, after spending over an hour tossing and turning and having no success, I'm debating as to whether or not I should continue trying and only get a couple of hours, potentially oversleeping and being late to morning class, or just staying up for the rest of the night and being a sack of bones tomorrow. Thoughts?
This brings me to my short question of the evening: Does anyone else here besides me really enjoy sleeping, but positively hate the act of falling asleep?
There are few pleasures I enjoy more than waking up on a lazy Sunday morning, looking outside and seeing overcast over Lake Michigan, and rolling back over a few more hours of Zs. However, for enjoying the actual act and duration of the event, I sure as hell can't stand the beginning of the dance. I don't know why. Probably something to do with just laying around, doing nothing, and waiting for that certain time when my brain shuts off and I lose 6 or so hours. Maybe it's the fact that I really don't like the concept of losing control of my body, hence my aversion to drinking large amounts of alcohol at once, and in my mind, sleeping is one of the biggest "losing control" that is deemed normal by society today. Or perhaps it's because I'm nuts. Surely it's one of these three explanations.
....Probably because I'm nuts.
Well, that's my life currently. Still not sure if I'm going to try to sleep again or just simply ride it out. Staring at my computer monitor certainly hasn't helped matters. Hopefully it'll all stay even kilter in the meanwhile.
"Life is something that happens when you can't get to sleep."
-Fran Lebowitz
Good night everyone, and I hope you're at least sleeping tight.
So as you can probably guess from the opening line, I am being plagued once again by not being able to sleep. Truly, insomnia is a cruel mistress, who harsh words can only be matched by having your cholesterol tested after eating at KFC. And now, after spending over an hour tossing and turning and having no success, I'm debating as to whether or not I should continue trying and only get a couple of hours, potentially oversleeping and being late to morning class, or just staying up for the rest of the night and being a sack of bones tomorrow. Thoughts?
This brings me to my short question of the evening: Does anyone else here besides me really enjoy sleeping, but positively hate the act of falling asleep?
There are few pleasures I enjoy more than waking up on a lazy Sunday morning, looking outside and seeing overcast over Lake Michigan, and rolling back over a few more hours of Zs. However, for enjoying the actual act and duration of the event, I sure as hell can't stand the beginning of the dance. I don't know why. Probably something to do with just laying around, doing nothing, and waiting for that certain time when my brain shuts off and I lose 6 or so hours. Maybe it's the fact that I really don't like the concept of losing control of my body, hence my aversion to drinking large amounts of alcohol at once, and in my mind, sleeping is one of the biggest "losing control" that is deemed normal by society today. Or perhaps it's because I'm nuts. Surely it's one of these three explanations.
....Probably because I'm nuts.
Well, that's my life currently. Still not sure if I'm going to try to sleep again or just simply ride it out. Staring at my computer monitor certainly hasn't helped matters. Hopefully it'll all stay even kilter in the meanwhile.
"Life is something that happens when you can't get to sleep."
-Fran Lebowitz
Good night everyone, and I hope you're at least sleeping tight.
im so sorry you have insomnia. i had it as a child, and it is beyond horrible. and yes, i love to sleep. but hate falling asleep. and sometimes i even hate waking up. falling asleep is terrible for me. i always find something horrible to think about or have a nightmare right as i'm falling asleep, so i'm still partly conscious, which sucks.
and i just realized i haven't consumed any alcohol today... which is extremely rare for me. so this might have a hand in the shitty dream and and leaving me wide awake.
anyway, i know you don't know me, but i saw your blog on the home page. i like to read random blogs when i have nothing to do.
hope you fall asleep tonight!